#if they treat you like shit for it. in even more subtle ways like emotional manipulation or hell even just homophobic assumptions like

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The 1st house & 7th house of the ascendant persona chart

You & your partner

Since my specialty is love, I thought it would be fun to do a comparison between you and your partner post ; more specifically, your character & how you are seen vs how your partner's character is like & seen as! It's also how you sort of act together. Note that this is not the only way to interpret these placements!

♡ 🕊️ Movie title: Drowning Love (2016)

Masterlist| Ascendant persona chart| Juno in the ascendant persona chart

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🕊️ Your rising sign & yourself

˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

‧꒰ა Aries ໒꒱ ‧

You are passionate, and bold, have the energy of a leader and someone that everyone can trust. Though the duality lies within your quick temper and constant sense or need of urgency. You are fun most of the time but still hold a lot of combativeness. For some people, you may seem like a ticking time bomb as well! You have a lot of energy and may appear quite argumentative to people who don't know you well (and those who know you as well haha!). Between you and your spouse, people just know you are the leader in the relationship but also the one that tends to take the "my way or the highway" route. You also show more emotion compared to your partner.

‧꒰აTaurus ໒꒱ ‧

You have an astute sense of elegance and loyalty, though you also prove to have quite the stubborn (& lazy) streak! People tend to trust you easily, and find you nonthreatening! You may often get compliments for how down to earth or cute you look by strangers or people who sort of know you. Compared to your partner, you are seen as dopey, friendly, feminine (for women especially), you just feel like a partner and usually the one that gets approached (or has more friends). You could gain a lot of attention for your looks as well.

‧꒰ა Gemini ໒꒱ ‧

You are very fun, and are usually the one that lightens the atmosphere around you. When you're with your spouse, your enthusiasm only increases and you are usually seen as excited and eager to do something. You are a social butterfly whether you actively search for people to talk you or not, people notice you due to your friendly and expressive personality. You are usually the one to start most conversations with your partner and maintain that level of enthusiasm throughout. Either way, you may be a beacon of optimism to you partner.

‧꒰ა Cancer ໒꒱ ‧

You are caring, gentle and supportive. You have a very sensible yet emotionally expressive way of carrying yourself compared to your spouse. You are likely the more "subtle" counterpart that people (especially women) are drawn to a lot. You have a sweet angelic presence and treat your spouse with much care and respect (though you can let your feelings get the best of you at times).

‧꒰ა Leo ໒꒱ ‧

"I'm quite the catch" I can imagine you telling yourself lol. You have a strong, confident and likeable personality. You may have a lot of friends and admirers and love to stand out and catch peoples' attention whenever you go out. You are very attractive; that's a given and are have a louder presence than your partner usually. People notice you before your spouse due to that radiance that you possess. You are very proud of your partner as well, and may like to show them off.

‧꒰ა Virgo ໒꒱ ‧

You are a very hardworking person and may be the one to help people around you quite often. You do have a tendency to be judgmental of others, and quite critical of yourself as well. You have your shit together and most of the time have to be in control of even the smallest things in your life. You are the problem solver in the relationship and may be quite the "nag" to your partner. Constantly pushing themselves to be and do better for their own sake.

‧꒰ა Libra ໒꒱ ‧

You are elegant and gracious. Between you and your spouse people will always look to you with adoration and sometimes question your choice of uh partner. You may also be quite the popular one around the opposite sex and that may irritate your partner lol. Compared to your partner you are seen as more level headed when you are together.

‧꒰ა Scorpio ໒꒱ ‧

You are seen as a quiet, calculating individual. You tend to speak only when spoken to and have somewhat of an uninviting look on your face. It's as if not everyone is willing or able to talk to you. Some of you with this placement may associate yourselves with alternative fashion as well i.e specifically ones that wear a lot of black. Either way, you are extremely devoted & attached to your partner, taking the position of the protector in the relationship.

‧꒰ა Sagittarius ໒꒱ ‧

You are seen as quite the people person! People also find you quite attractive and friendly. You go through life with a very open minded approach, and possess a sort of innate wisdom to you. You treat your partner as your friend and your companion. Someone strong on their own but you're always there for them when necessary. People are easily drawn to you as well because of how friendly (and likely how attractive you are).

‧꒰ა Capricorn ໒꒱ ‧

You are very adult if that makes sense. People see you and know how reliable you are, you could even have people assuming that you're older than your age too. You just look like you got your shit together & may even have the track record to prove you are tougher than most people are willing to be. You are very supportive of your partner and very understanding as well; you're not easily shaken by measley problems or misunderstandings in your relationship. Between you and your partner, people know you are not easy to mess with and likely have the final say in the relationship.

‧꒰ა Aquarius ໒꒱ ‧

You are very sharp though some may categorize you as an idiosyncratic. You give space to your partner and likely look very pleased in the relationship due to your partner's ability to let you be yourself. People think of you as the people's person between you and your spouse. You are likely the one to deal with socializing and even thinking of new things to do together and may even dranging your partner into doing things they may have never thought they would do. You are also the likely the smarter one out of the two of you.

‧꒰ა Pisces ໒꒱ ‧

People find you to be quite the sweetheart. You are very sweet and compassionate, and may relinquish all thoughts whenever you are next to your partner (a true passenger princess/prince). Though you are quite sociable, you aren't exactly the one to actively try to get yourself in the spotlight and would much prefer staying somewhere familiar with your partner. You tend to be the more clingy counterpart in the relationship.

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🕊️ Your descendant & your partner

˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

‧꒰ა Aries ໒꒱ ‧

My what a partner! They have a very strong character, and are not one to stand still in the dark doing nothing. They may be quite competitive in nature; meaning they may enjoy (or have the habit) to compete with you, tease you or even get on your nerves for fun (or for their own benefit like proving a point/the sake of it). People may see them as domineering, and quick to anger or get upset easily but it's not the only thing to them. They are also one to stick with you when the going gets tough

‧꒰ა Taurus ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is incredibly friendly and though are quite composed in nature may have a bit of a shy streak. They may be slightly clumsy as well and a lot of times you may find yourself being the one to pick up after them or look out for them. Even if they are independent on their own, with you it seems their mind may go autopilot. Your partner is also very sweet and is seen as quite reliable to other people. You may often get a lot of compliments for your partner too.

‧꒰ა Gemini ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is creative and incredibly humours. They have a silly, open energy that always brings a smile to your face and to others, they are quite the fun person to be around. They may have very animated expressions or way of speech that feel rather cartoonish (?). They seem to be your funny guy/girl that brings energy, optimism and thought provoking ideas into the mix whenever you're around them. They are your person to talk to who is always supportive of your ideas (whether good or bad). They gas you up.

‧꒰ა Cancer ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is a shy but friendly person. They can be quite clingy & sensitive but for the most part are very supportive & sweet regardless of their gender. They could have an innocence to them and may have an eager side to them as well. Your partner may be seen as rather immature or pure to others. They can't seem to shake this good boy/girl vibe to them. They are dependable and always by your side. They tend to be straightforward with their intentions too. Not one for mind games.

‧꒰ა Leo ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is quite the charismatic bastard (lol). They have a strong personality, a sense of loyalty, yet value your independence and personal life. They have a strong character that likely took years to build and are generally masculine or confident of themselves. They may be a little self centered and narcissistic, but they have a generous approach to life and those around them.

‧꒰ა Virgo ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner may look like quite the goody two shoes lol. They are neat, well mannered, practical and sensible towards you and others around them. They may be quite the people pleaser though; always doing things for you and others. Your partner is likely quite smart and calculating as well but they have an approachable enough approach to other (though they may be intimidating to some). They just look and feel like they were raised well.

‧꒰ა Libra ໒꒱ ‧

You partner is quite agreeable and has a "classy" energy to them. They are very well dressed in public and may keep some sort of pleasant appreance when they are out and about. Your future spouse is likely very popular, and may be quite the Casanova whether they intend to or not. People may unintentionally (or intentionally) flirt with your partner while you're in public as well.

‧꒰ა Scorpio ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is quite the intimidating person, they could come adorning a grey cloud on their head as well! They are very private and sensitive, but love to keep you & the people they loves close to them. They could come off as more gloomy or condescending/closed off than you are and people may be somewhat hesitatent to approach you due to the terrifying presence of your spouse!

‧꒰ა Sagittarius ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is quite the popular person to be around; meaning they have many friends as is well respected wherever they are at. They are very funny, and has quite the extensive knowledge (street smarts & experience). They have high ambitions but are down to earth and lighten any room they walk into. Usually very realistic although they may have a tendency to aim a little too high at times. They treat you as their equal for the most part, but do tend to idealise you or praise you to the heavens. They have a big personality lol.

‧꒰ა Capricorn ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is extremely self-sufficient, and may be quite focused on their self and career for the most part. However, when it comes to your relationship, they are the type to stick it through until the end. They may be the one to plan things for you and " take care" of you so to speak. They are responsible and assertive; they may take the lead in your relationship and act like your guardian. People know that the way to get through you is to get through your partner.

‧꒰ა Aquarius ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is quick witted and seen as someone very capable at what they do. They are likely different from the type of people you usually surround yourself with (and stick out like a sore thumb) but to me, that's a good thing; they are able to show you a different world and way of thinking. They are smart, entertaining and secure about themselves and who they are, though you may find their eccentricities to be rather embarrassing at times. It adds to the fun of being together.

‧꒰ა Pisces ໒꒱ ‧

Your partner is an extremely relaxed person. They have a mellow but reassuring personality, often being the type that people vent to. They are a good listener & do have a lot of patience, though they can be a bit of a drama queen or have tunnel vision at times i.e victimize themselves. They are typically wholesome and may always be seen next to you as well.

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🕊️ Your relationship

Note that since the degrees are the same for your rising & descendant, I'll be interpreting that as the vibe of your relationship for this post specifically!

˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

👉🏻 (°0 )

Your relationship is strong yet unpredictable. Both of you seem to be drawn to each other like magnets and are a catalyst (either for growth, love and affection or complete destruction and rebellion) for each other. People may have very mixed feelings about the both of you as well. Emotions run high between you and it can drive either you or others crazy at times.

👉🏻 (°1,°13,°25)

Your relationship is quite the rollercoaster. On one hand you are both independent and tough, but then that energy may be put up againsts each other; causing arguments and stubbornness to ensue. Still, there is this light-hearted young love to you that people will find entertaining. The type of love to make you feel giddy like a first love/highschool sweethearts.

👉🏻 (°2,°14,°26)

Your relationship is very sweet and stable, you may be quite physical (fond of PDA) when you are together. I see this in charts of couples who like to hold hands and kiss each other in public; even more so when it's just the two of you. Rest assured that your relationship is seen quite fondly by most people as you both are well mannered and presentable. Your relationship itself is also solid and secure.

👉🏻(°3,°15,°27)

Your relationship is very friendly and flirtatious at the same time. You may bounce between acting like friends and lovers, but you are always with each other and stick to each other like glue at times. You will have a lot of inside jokes and a lot of fun together too. People may think that your relationship is exciting and has a lot of drama or gossip surrounding it.

👉🏻(°4,°16,°28)

Both of you are very attached to each other, usually one of you is more dominant than the other (like the leader in the relationship). Both of you are supportive and relaxed around each other. Though comforting, your relationship may be rather codependent and smothering to others as well. Your relationship may have quite the healing effect to the both of you as well. You both are able to express your deepest burdens and let your guard down. That's what's most prevalent to others at least.

👉🏻(°5,°17,°29)

You relationship is very fun, you may find yourself laughing a lot together and people can see that. You have the type of relationship that makes you feel like a child again, both of you are very fun and expressive with each other. A little dramatic yes, but it's fun nonetheless. You both may be rather loud together and always have some sort of antics when you're out and about which draws attention to you whether you wanted it or not (like being loud at a restaurant). You may be quite the popular pair as well.

👉🏻(°6,°18)

Your relationship is very practical and mature. That being said it's not boring. You fit into each other's lives perfectly and you both put in the work to be with each other. You may always be seen together and mellow each other out (there's balance between how you act). You actively support each other and back up any thoughts, decisions or actions that your partner takes & vice versa. People can see that you teach each other to be better people.

👉🏻(°7,°19)

Your relationship will look very exclusive to other people. You feel and act like a proper partnership ( and may exhibit parent like energy too). You both may have that white picket fence type of relationship; proper, romantic and idealistic. You bounce well off each other and have a very romantic yet fair approach to your relationship.

👉🏻(°8,°20)

Your relationship is private, and protective. Both of you look like you are an untouchable pair, one that has each other's back and always there for each other. It might be difficult to see what the both of you are doing behind closed doors, but everyone will just know that you both are in deep (in more ways than one lmao). People will also think you are quite scandalous together (something about your relationship is rather controversial).

👉🏻 (°9,°21)

Your relationship is supportive, and has a very casual feel. Both of you really feel and act like old friends and have no problem communicating your thoughts together. You have deep moments, but they may come across as teasingly; like you aren't in a rush to do or go anywhere because you know you can do whatever with your partner and they'll be there. Both of you are the wise friends that walk through life in your own pace.

👉🏻(°10,°22)

Your relationship is strong, enduring. People can tell that your relationship is one that can stand the test of time and may put some sort of expectation onto you & your partner as well like "The world ends when they break up" or something along that line. Usually this shows up in relationships that last a looooong time and has very few shake ups in between. Congratulations!

👉🏻(°11,°23)

Your relationship is good-humored, eccentric, flexible, liberal and exciting. You tend to love joking around with your partner with this placement. It's like two weirdos that come together to form their own two person weirdo team and now it's them against the world. Both of you encourage and enable each other to be wilder and less restrictive around each other. You may have quite the unconventional relationship.

👉🏻(°12,°24)

There is something mystical about your relationship, and almost elusive. Your relationship is very private, romantic and idealistic; to others you look like true lovers. One that seems to have everything figured out between you two. The type of relationship that people idealize. You both may seem to be intune with each other on every level. You may worship each other too.

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🕊️ Planets & asteroids in the 1st & 7th house

˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

‧꒰ა 5129 Groom ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st house

You are seen as quite the man , or the leader in your relationship. You take your responsibilities & your spouse (usually feminine) very seriously.

In the 7th house

Your partner is very loyal & hardworking. If you are the male (if you find yourself more masculine too) counterpart, they are very loyal to you and may think of you highly. They themselves are self-sufficient.

‧꒰ა 19029 Briede ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st house

You are seen as extremely lovely, some may associate you as a lover or a wife (specifically after marriage), the mom friend & see that being a wife suits your image a lot or you place a lot of pride into being a bride.

In the 7th house

Your wife or your marriage is very important to you, some people that have this are extremely devoted to their lover. Your partner is a lovely person with a natural caregiver energy. They just look and feel like a wife/male wife to others. They are charismatic and smart as well.

‧꒰ა 3 Juno or 1487 Boda ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st house

You take your relationships seriously, and are quite the dedicated person. Your partner means a lot to you and you may have a somewhat public relationship with them; meaning you are usually spotted either working or spending time with your partner. You likey mirror your partner in some way; they see themselves in you and you in them. You may be quite proud of your relationship as well. Your relationship, and marriage is the first thing that people may notice about you since you tend to flaunt it/show it off.

In the 7th house

Your partner is a reflection of you, they are loyal and dutiful, and may appear quite professional to some people. Your marriage is well-established and is deeply tied to the both of you. People may see you as sort of a brand together or think of you as one. People may think your partner is really devoted and carries that "spouse" energy really well.

‧꒰ა Sun ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are likely the one to lead, and also the more lively/social and noticable out of you two. Your personality is strong and infectious; regardless of what sign it's in.

In the 7th House

Your partner has a strong presence and is unapologetically themselves. They stand out a lot whether it's intentional or not in their perspective. They tend to be rather positive and assertive as well; they light up any room they walk into (or dim it depending on other aspects/placements lol).

‧꒰ა Moon ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are the more emotional expressive person in the relationship. People may find you to be easier to read than your spouse and may form a connection with you easily. You may be quite clingy or enjoy depending on your partner from time to time. You are very nurturing to your partner but may be quite moody around them too. You can be seen as rather immature or "pure " as well compared to your partner.

In the 7th House

Your partner is very affectionate and kind, though they may have a codependent or erratic streak to them when it comes to their reactions. They are vulnerable with you and people are also easily drawn to them due to their openness. In retrograde though, they could be tight-lipped or be rather dry and prefer to be on their own for the most part. They also might find physical affection rather uncomfortable (depending on the sign like it's that way for Cancer but in Aquarius that retrograde suddenly makes them more physical).

‧꒰ა Mercury ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are seen as very intelligent and a bit of a smarty pants by others. You tend to be the more reliable one in the relationship; planning dates, activities, trips for the both of you, being the one to face the dreaded reception in any hotel or restaurant you go to.

In the 7th House

Your partner likely handles a lot of the socialising or planning on your behalf. They will also be quite generous with compliments though they expect the same in return. Your partner is very sharp and perceptive, they may be quite the yapper as well lol at least that's how they come across.

‧꒰ა Venus ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

People find you to be very charismatic. You are very generous with your partner even if it's sitting in "rigid" signs, like Virgo, Capricorn or Aquarius especially, you will still likely reciprocate your partners affections or even initiate them. You may be open to the idea of public displays of affection as well.

In the 7th House

Your partner is a very attractive and romantic person. People are easily drawn to your partner and may find them to be even more attractive when they are next to you (or compared to you lol). They dress nice, look like and smell nice too. They may be quite affectionate even in public. They adore you greatly but may treat you as an accessory at times.

‧꒰ა Mars ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are very attractive to the opposite sex (but men especially even if you are a man and straight lol) and that may be a little irritating to your future spouse especially if you work out a lot; it's really obvious. You are more active or athletic than your spouse and it shows. You tend to make most of the first moves and like being quite direct with your actions compared to your spouse. You are this extremely protective and may have a bit of a jealous streak around them.

In the 7th house

Your partner is a doer, and may be quite restless. They have a lot of energy and may like dragging you along to do a bunch of different things together. They are quick, and may have a lot of movements (meaning they use a lot of body language when they talk).They are attractive to men They may have a rather stubborn streak to them as well. In retrograde or in Pisces/conjuncting Neptune or Uranus they may be a bit lazy or have the tendency to procrastinate a LOT compared to you (have a go with the flow attitude).

Ex: Blake Lively has Mars in Aries° 9 Sagittarius in the 7th house. Ryan Reynolds is everyman's crush lmao.

‧꒰ა Jupiter ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You have a big personality and often capture a lot of people's attention due to your outward personality. People may come up to you a lot in public and find you incredibly.. well incredible. In retrograde though, you may be on the rather shy and quite side but it doesn't negate your socializing skills. People do notice you but they don't really "idealize" you per say. You have quite charisma but that retrograde instead, gives you that desire to be seen (could mean you are a little bit narcissistic lol).

In the 7th House

Your partner is fun, energy and lively. They leave a big impression wherever they go and may be quite popular too (like socially) and have lots of friends. They may be quite the talker and be seen as very naturally magnetic to others. Around you they are very funny and optimistic but still seem like the "wiser" counterpart. They may always have some sort of lesson or revelation that they hand to you now and then. In retrograde, your partner may be seen as "easy" to some or overly cautious. People may think your partner puts a lot of blind faith onto you as well.

‧꒰ა Saturn ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are very practical around people & your partner, better you two people tend to trust your judgement more than your partner's just because of that older/mature vibe you give off. Likewise, you tend to be the problem solver or the one you partner comes to for support or to vent out their frustrations. In retrograde however, you may be a little immature at times and set some sort of tunnel vision in your head (you can appear to be one-track minded), also you may have a more youthful presence.

In the 7th House

Your partner is a loyal person and people see them as such. Your partner isn't one to play around and are rather sure of themselves. They are hardworking and serious. They may come across as boring, controlling & domineering to some. They could look rather bland when compared to you. It may show up as the opposite if its conjuncting Uranus or Saturn is in Aquarius; meaning they can be seen as quite flighty and unfaithful or lazy, may be a bit of a player or look like one.

Ex: Cardi B has Chiron retrograde in the first house and Saturn is in Aquarius (7th House) which means they opposite each other. If I recall correctly after listening to her album Invasion of Privacy its quite evident that Offsets' infidelity made her quite insecure of herself (even though she's beautiful & usually very confident about her looks).

‧꒰ა Neptune ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You are well liked by a lot of people and are quite the people-person. You may like to keep yourself busy or surround yourself with a lot of people. You are willing to go the extra mile for your partner, you likely feel like an angel to your partner though you may not see it yourself. You possess much versatility and are more easygoing than your partner.

In the 7th House

Your partner is quite the obfuscating enigma lol, though they are seen as someone incredibly romantic and would go to the far end of the sea for you if you so please. They have a go with the flow attitude, and may prefer to follow your lead with whatever choices you make. They may worship you to the ends of this earth. In retrograde, they may look like a puppet on your string at times.

‧꒰ა Uranus ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

Anywhere you see Uranus it can cause the previous attributes (at least some of it to be the opposite of what it's meant to be). The context depends on the sign itself but Uranus here specifically makes you more carefree and outgoing. You tend to be self sufficient for the most part and do not really require a partner to be fulfilled in life; you are usually seen on your own, doing your own thing. If you do have a partner you may seem like close friends or not be seen together much.

In the 7th House

Your partner is a very independent person. They are quite intelligent ( in their own way) and have a variety of people around them for the most part. They are your energizer, your personal weirdo that loves to spice up or wreck your day with their antics lol. They will seem like your best friend that's very different from you; like if you are naturally well mannered & book smart then your spouse is creative and has no filter.

‧꒰ა Pluto ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st house

You are sexy as hell yes, but you are also possessive as hell over your partner. You can be a bit oppressing around them, constantly looking to have their attention and see what they see. You could look rather rude to certain people especially when they're crossing the boundaries that you set up in your head. In retrograde though, you are very lenient (much, much more lenient that expected) to the point that your partner may want you to be jealous & protective to some degree.

In the 7th House

Your partner can be quite the handful. As in, hand full of your neck when you so much as sit too closely to the opposite sex (eye rolls, side eyes, expect all the eyes). They are very expressive but also very picky with what they choose to express. They are incredibly sensual and loving when it's just the two of you but it's advisable to look out for yourself because they can be quite petty lol.

‧꒰ა Chiron ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st House

You have the tendency to overcompensate for yourself when you're with your partner and although you mean well, they may find it difficult to trust you and you can see that. You may also break a lot of hearts when you start dating or being seen around your partner either because you are desirable or your partner is. You may feel a bit insecure of yourself as well compared to your partner. If it's in retrograde, then your partner may make you feel rather insecure about yourself especially if you are usually quite the flamboyant type. Either way, people will find you to be emotionally vulnerable yet have a healing presence.

Ex: Priscilla Presley has this placement. If you paid attention to their relationship back then or have read her book/watched Priscilla. Then you know how she felt trying to compensate for that power imbalance she had between her & Elvis. Seemingly always doing more.

In the 7th House

Your partner is quite the timid person and they may have a lot on their mind (the type to stress or overcomplicate things), they may have a fear of intimacy or rejection and may seem pale (or think of themselves that way) in comparison to you. Your partner is a natural caregiver and have a tendency to say yes to too many things they they might regret later. They have this eagerness to them; not wanting to let you down. In retrograde though, they may adopt a victim mindset and be rather pessimistic.

‧꒰ა Lilith ໒꒱ ‧

In the 1st house

You are an eccentricity. You are very independent and a little strange, people may find themselves easily drawn to you because of that exact reason including your partner. You may be the "stand out character" between you and your partner and may have interesting (or rather dangerous) ways to present yourself with your partner. People may be jealous of your partner for being with you as well.

In the 7th house

Your partner is an unconventional type of person. Very bold & powerful , but also slightly narcissistic or uncanny in some way shape or form. You yourself may have (an) unconventional relationship (s) as well. Some individuals with this placement may choose not to marry, or have trouble fitting in with their partner. You could feel like they do not being you fulfilment (or people may think you do not like being in the same boring relationship for that long). If you do get together with someone, they are usually criticized due to their character or looks; thinking they aren't as up to par as you. People may also be jealous of your partner.

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[milunalupin]

Hello! Hogwarts Legacy request! Sebastian confronts Ominis on why he always seems to give in to MC so easily. Ominis can either completely deny his feelings or acknowledge them, but if the latter, he sadly gives reasons as to why he believes she’d never choose him.

…and MC may or may not have been eavesdropping the whole time…

a/n: i apologize for the wait, but thank you so much for your request darling ! i hope you like this <3

— amoureuse

ominis gaunt x reader ★ 1k words

Ominis, who always seemed to be so quiet, so reserved, had never been one to reveal his feelings openly. But lately, there was something different about him, a softness even his best friend hasn't experienced, especially when it came to you.

Sebastian has been noticing it for several weeks now. How Ominis’ voice would soften when he spoke to you, how he seemed to always be the first to offer help, his usual sharp wit replaced by an unexpected tenderness. Sebastian had to admit that it was confusing, especially considering the fact that his friend had always been so opposed to anything regarding relationships. But there was something different when you were around. And Sebastian, ever the nosy one, couldn’t ignore it any longer.

He found him in the common room after class, seated in his usual velvet chair in the corner.

“You’ve been acting strange lately,” Sebastian said, his tone casual, but with an undercurrent of something more serious. "Especially with her."

Ominis paused, his fingers absently picking at a stray thread on the arm of the chair he was seated in, his face showing no emotion, though Sebastian knew him well enough to see the subtle shift in his posture. "What do you mean?" Ominis asked, his voice deliberately neutral.

"You know exactly what I mean," Sebastian smirked, stepping closer. "Our very pretty friend. You always give in to her. No matter what she asks, no matter what she does. You act like a lovesick fool, yet you do nothing about it."

“I don’t know what you're talking about,” Ominis replied stiffly, his voice flat. “I treat her the same as anyone else. Except for Garreth, the git.”

Sebastian scoffed. “It’s obvious to everyone, Ominis. You’re always so careful with her, so accommodating. You could never argue with her. Don’t pretend you don’t feel something.”

Sebastian watched him, waiting for the inevitable admission. But instead, Ominis let out a sigh, one that sounded more like resignation than frustration.

"Fine," Ominis muttered, his shoulders slumping slightly. "You want the truth?"

Sebastian raised an eyebrow. "Of course."

Ominis took a deep breath, his fingers still tugging at the tiny thread, as though he were grounding himself. "I... I do feel something. I can’t help it. But it doesn’t matter, Sebastian. She would never choose me."

Sebastian’s eyes widened, confusion and disbelief flashing across his face. “What do you mean ‘she’d never choose you’? You’ve been a better friend to her than half the people in this school – definitely better than me. If anyone deserves her, it’s you!”

Ominis shook his head, a faint chuckle escaping his lips, though it was hollow and tinged with bitterness. “You think she’d choose someone like me? A Gaunt. A blind, cursed, and broken Gaunt?”

Sebastian took a step back, startled by the sudden sharpness in Ominis' voice.

“I can’t give her what she deserves,” Ominis continued, his tone softening, but the weight of his words settling heavily between them. “She deserves someone who can see her, who can be her equal. I’m... not that.”

Sebastian’s brow furrowed. "Ominis, that’s nonsense. You’re one of the most brilliant, kindest, and loyal people I know. She’d never think any of that pureblood shit matters. And she sure as hell doesn't see your blindness as something that would stand in the way of… well, anything."

Ominis was quiet for a long while, his voice a mere whisper when he finally spoke again. "She deserves someone who can protect her, who can give her a future... a life full of happiness. Someone who isn’t constantly haunted by his family’s name, or by the things I've done. Someone who isn’t me."

Sebastian’s heart clenched at his friend’s words. He wanted to argue, to tell him that none of that mattered, but he knew Ominis well enough to understand that this wasn’t about logic—it was about fear. Fear of being inadequate, of being unworthy.

“I know you’re trying to protect her,” Sebastian said, his voice softer now, “but you’re wrong, Ominis. You’re more than enough, your past doesn't define who you are. And you and I know better than anyone, she's not the type of girl that needs protecting.”

Ominis didn’t respond right away. The silence between them felt thick, and Sebastian could feel the weight of his friend’s emotions pressing in, too heavy to ignore.

It was then that Sebastian noticed a faint sound from the shadows down the hall. A slight rustling, a breath held too long. His eyes flickered toward the noise.

“Is that you, Pip?” he called out.

A soft gasp followed, and you stepped out from behind a pillar, eyes wide, face flushed with the unmistakable flush of someone who had been caught eavesdropping.

“I didn’t mean to.. I wasn’t trying to—” you stammered, but your words trailed off as Ominis’ head shot over in your direction.

For a moment, no one spoke. The air was heavy with the weight of your discovery. Ominis looked as though he'd been caught doing something wrong, despite the fact that all he had done was speak the truth..

“I... really hope you didn't hear that,” Ominis murmured, his voice barely audible, a mixture of shame and fear in his tone.

“Ominis,” you said softly, taking a tentative step forward . “You’re wrong. You’re so wrong.”

Ominis shook his head, quickly standing and gripping his wand tightly. "I don’t expect you to understand. I don’t want to burden you with this."

"You’re not a burden, Ominis. I don’t care about your past, or your name, or anything that you think would stand in the way of us."

Ominis froze, his breath hitching in his throat, his expression torn between disbelief and longing. "But I’m not the man you think I am. I can’t—"

You reached out, taking his hand in yours, your touch soft but firm. "You’re exactly the person I want, Ominis. I’ve always seen you. Not your name, not your blindness... you."

And in that moment, everything seemed to shift. The walls he had built around himself began to crumble, piece by piece.

“You really mean that?” he whispered, his voice thick with emotion.

You smiled, your heart swelling. “I do.”

Sebastian, watching from the sidelines, shook his head with a smile. "Well, I’m glad that’s finally settled," he muttered, before pushing off the wall. "Now, if you two don’t mind, I’d like to leave the two of you to your sappy moment."

[blackdollette]

"sobbing in my cup of coffee,

ㅤㅤㅤ'cause i fell for another loser."ᝰ r.c.

in my feelings. - lana del rey

⊹₊⋆ synopsis: "just another one of those shitty pogues" he said...

⊹₊⋆ pairing: pogue!waitress!female!reader x toxic!rafe

⊹₊⋆ word count: 1.2k

⊹₊⋆ contents: slight "enemies to lovers" (ish), a few sexual themes, obvious tension, rafe being a potential sweetheart / hopeless romantic ( finally locked the fuck back in and started writing again! )

nervousness; the single emotion which had never graced the dynamic psyche of rafe cameron.

he often flipped through the long list in his mind during the long nights he’d lay sleepless in his bed.

anger? check. regret? absolutely. extreme and often irrational hatred toward pogues? without a doubt. 

it was no secret that if he viewed someone like scum, he would sure as hell treat them like it. it was safe to say that there probably wasn’t a single pogue left in the outer banks who hadn’t gotten shit from him in one way or another. however, you were the painfully obvious outlier…

you were never an unfamiliar subject for him. you’d gotten along well with his sister, been in his father’s good graces, and were just pretty enough to earn yourself an unofficial spot in the country club. to him, you were just about the furthest thing from a pogue he’d ever seen, but your clean white converse sneakers and designer denim shorts didn’t make you any more valid in his eyes.

he’d had it in him to give you a piece of his mind long ago. to tell you to go back to your side of the island, treat you like the dirt he thought your kind was, and maybe even give you a good beating once the sun had gone down. no matter how much that pretty face of yours sent his heart to cloud nine, he hated your guts more than any other pogue on the planet. or at least, he wanted to.

but you were the one girl on the planet who smoothed out his jagged edges.

as you swiftly travelled through the cafe, a tray in your hand as you dashed to deliver miscellaneous foods, drinks, and desserts to various tables, rafe’s eyes intently followed your every move, like a timid predator watching a particularly elusive prey.

this little routine of his went as follows: him and two of his hot-headed friends would just-so-happen to stumble into the exact cafe you worked at on the exact day at the exact time and take a seat at the concealed booth at the back, he’d feign oblivious offence when you begrudgingly took his order, and spectate you for the rest of the night, not even daring to blink in fear of missing the many times your skirt would ride up your exemplary figure, revealing just enough of your thighs to make his gut churn.

kelce whistles lowly as his eyes follow you from across the cafe, painfully less subtle than ideal. “man… that ass sure is somethin’ special, i’ll tell you that much.” he mutters under his breath with a laugh, elbowing rafe in the side.

however, the laugh quickly diminishes as rafe shoots a razor-sharp glare that could cut diamonds, his voice dropping an octave as he takes his friend’s shirt by the collar and whispers in his ear.

“listen to me, and listen good. i didn’t bring you over here to gawk at my woman, you hear? utter another word about her, and i’ll skin you.”

unlike most of his words, this threat was far from empty. the possessiveness in his voice was almost laughable, especially considering the fact that the only time you even looked in his direction was when you served him a drink. his obsession with you had started when you were both young, two kids who would stupidly practice kissing each other and share tight, fearful hugs in the darkness of his bedroom whenever a storm would break.

but like everything in life, it all had to go sour eventually. he began to care too much about his image and status in society while you still wanted to spend long nights with him surfing on the waves. the differences between you two only became more prominent from that point forward.

you were too emotional, he was too apathetic. he became an asshole, you became a bitch. you were saving yourself for marriage, and he considered a girl a prude if she denied him a blowjob on the first date. it was no wonder the hatred between the two of you was so strong. 

but despite this, business was business. and if you wanted to collect your paycheck at the end of the month, you’d have to serve the elephant in the corner of the room sooner or later.

“hot coffee, no cream, no sugar.” you mutter flatly, reciting the same item he’s ordered every night for the past 6 months. you take the hot mug off your tray and set it down in front of the blonde, his eyes locked on your unamused expression.

you were even prettier up close. 

the thought passed through his mind as his gaze travelled from your bright eyes to your perfect lips, going further until they reached the forbidden territory that hid under your skimpy apron.

“that’ll be $9.99.” you say sternly, snapping his gaze away from your chest, cursing yourself for not choosing less-revealing attire.

rafe’s eyes narrowed as they rose back to your eyes, his expression conforming to a scowl. “what? a black coffee is only five dollars!”

you rolled your eyes with a scoff. “being a perv costs extra. that’s the price of not having any goddamn decency.”

you knew how to rile him up, and that was by threatening his money. normally, he’d beat the tar out of any organism that even thought of squandering money from him, but you could barely fight the smirk that tugged at your lips as he attempted to sputter out a protestant response. naturally, he couldn’t say a word with you looking down at him like that, smiling ever so slightly at the conniption he began to have.

he tutted with disapproval, shaking his head as he dug into the pocket of his designer denim jeans, pulling out his leather wallet. he fished his fingers into the largest compartment, pulling out a fresh, uncreased twenty-dollar bill. he slammed it on the table, pushing it toward you and mumbling with defiant defeat. 

“...keep the fuckin’ change.”  

a smile lit up your face as you accepted the bill, stuffing it into your bra just so you could watch his cheeks flush once more. 

you smiled sweetly as you picked up your tray from the table, speaking to the boys in a faux-submissive tone.

“if anything is not to your liking, you know who to call.”

with that, you sauntered away, leaving rafe to stare at you from behind as he sulked, his elbow resting on the table as he stared into his reflection in the dark pool of liquid that sat in front of him. “...nothing but a shitty pogue, is what she is…”

he muttered to himself, hating how much he kind of liked it when you bitched at him. he wanted to shout at you and kiss you and shut you up as he drowned you in the love that he had concealed from you for all these years. if he truly wanted to, he could’ve even followed you behind the counter and finally recite the confessional speech he had been practicing for months.

but instead, he huffed quietly, looking back at the loser who stared right back at him in his cup of coffee.

[gatorbites-imagines]

hi !! could i maybe get some rex splode x gnc trans male reader stuff, if you’re cool with that !! maybe smth abt the reader getting misgendered for wearing clothes they feel more comfortable with and rex stepping in to defend them :o thank you sm !!

Rex Sloan/Rex splode x ftm reader

Headcanons

Rex wasn’t the best guy up until getting shot in the second season, but that wouldn’t matter if you guys were dating, except for the fact that he would apologize to you and try his hardest to be a better boyfriend.

He might have misgendered you on accident the very first time you guys met, but when you corrected him that didn’t happen again. He might have been a dick sometimes, but he isn’t a bigot.

I like to think Rex is secretly into fashion at a low level, since he’s into stuff like decorating. So, he would be excited to help you plan your outfits.

Since he is a government experiment, he wouldn’t have that deeply ingrained image of gender either, so he wouldn’t care too much about you, your gender, or your way of expressing yourself.

In the beginning he wouldn’t be into wearing anything feminine himself though, since he’s quite insecure and unsure about himself and the image he puts off. But that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t support you.

His insecurity would have crossed over to how people treat you though. Since disrespecting you is also disrespecting him, but also because he loves you and doesn’t want you getting mistreated.

This leads to him getting into fights, both verbal and physical, since how dare they treat you like that? Who the fuck do they think they are? They can taste his damn explosions if they’re gonna keep that shit up.

In the beginning his acts of defending you can be quite a lot, since he takes peoples comments more personal that you do. To the point where he might even get snippy with people who do it on accident even if they correct themselves immediately after being informed.

But after getting shot in the head and rethinking a lot about himself, Rex would become better at dealing with himself, his emotions and his reactions.

This not only leads to him being a better boyfriend in general, but also not reacting so quick to violence and anger if somebody says the wrong thing or looks at you wrong. He still keeps a sharp eye on people though, especially when you are dressing the ways you prefer.

Where in the past Rex would make a loud scene, after the bullet he would be more lowkey. And by that, I mean, pull the person to the side or just quietly tell them that if they don’t stop nobody would be able to find the pieces of their body after he blew them up.

Of course he doesn’t always end up using threats of death, but that’s mainly because he knows you wouldn’t like it. to Rex, being transphobic on purpose deserves it, but since it wouldn’t be what you and others wanted, he would keep it as a last defense. Or at least wait for no one else to be around.

He makes sure to check up on you afterwards too. Rex would try to be subtle, but he isn’t really the most subtle guy. So, when he’s trying to see if your okay and affirm your gender, he says something like “you know you’re the most handsome guy I know, right?”

After understanding himself better, he might even get the interest in trying to wear different things. At this point I can’t imagine him wearing it in public, but when he’s alone or together with you, he might put on a few different things to see how he feels.

Rex always gets embarrassed about it though, especially if you comment about it, even if it’s telling him it looks good. So your best bet is to not mention it until he brings it up himself.

[kaayyyys]

TWD boys with a teenage daughter who is in the "fuck you" phase?

Thank youuu for your request 🫶🏼

( rick grimes , negan smith, daryl dixon)

You're Rick Grimes' daughter. Not just any daughter, mind you, but his daughter, raised in the apocalypse, tough as nails, and suddenly, inexplicably, morphing into a teenager. And not just any teenager, but one firmly entrenched in the "fuck you" phase.

Rick, bless his heart, isn't exactly known for his emotional intelligence. He's a leader, a survivor, a man who knows how to take down a walker with a well-aimed shot. But teenage angst? That's a whole different breed of monster. At first, he probably wouldn't even recognize it. He'd attribute your sudden mood swings, slammed doors, and eye-rolls to the stress of living in the apocalypse. "She's just having a hard time," he'd tell Michonne, his brow furrowed with concern. "We all are."

He'd try to connect with you the way he always has, by offering practical solutions. See you moping around camp? He'd suggest extra patrol duty. "Keeps you sharp," he'd say, completely missing the point. Hear you complaining about the lack of decent clothes? He'd offer to teach you how to tan walker skin for a new jacket. (Okay, maybe not walker skin, but you get the idea.) His attempts to "fix" the problem would only exacerbate the situation, leading to even more dramatic sighs and pronouncements about how he "just doesn't understand."

The "fuck you" phase, of course, wouldn't be explicit at first. It would manifest in subtle ways. A refusal to make eye contact. Sarcastic remarks muttered under your breath. Deliberately ignoring his instructions during training exercises. Rick, a man used to being obeyed without question, would find this incredibly unsettling. He'd start questioning his leadership, wondering if he was losing control. He might even consult with Daryl, who, despite his gruff exterior, has a surprisingly good read on people.

Daryl, leaning against a tree, whittling a piece of wood, would offer his typically blunt assessment: "She's a kid, Rick. They all do this shit. Just gotta ride it out."

"Ride it out?" Rick would repeat, exasperated. "We're living in the apocalypse, Daryl! We can't afford to 'ride out' teenage rebellion. People could get hurt!"

But Daryl, wise in the ways of human nature, would just shrug. "Then you gotta learn to speak her language, Rick. Figure out what she wants."

And that's where the real challenge begins. Rick, a man of action, would have to learn to become a man of… well, not exactly words, but at least gestures of understanding. He'd start paying closer attention, observing your behavior, trying to decipher the hidden meaning behind your teenage pronouncements.

He'd notice you spending more time with other teenagers in the community, whispering and giggling about things he couldn't comprehend. He'd see you sneaking glances at boys, your cheeks flushed with a mixture of embarrassment and excitement. He'd realize that you weren't just rebelling against him; you were trying to figure out who you were, separate from him and the apocalypse.

This realization would hit him hard. He'd always seen you as his little girl, the innocent child he was determined to protect. Now, you were growing up, changing, becoming your own person. And he had to let you.

This wouldn't be easy, of course. There would be arguments, misunderstandings, and moments of genuine frustration on both sides. You'd accuse him of being overprotective, of treating you like a child, of not trusting you. He'd retort that he was only trying to keep you safe, that the world was a dangerous place, that you needed to be responsible.

But beneath the surface of these arguments, there would be a growing understanding. You'd start to see that his overprotectiveness stemmed from love, not control. He'd begin to recognize that your desire for independence wasn't a personal attack, but a natural part of growing up.

He might start trying to connect with you in different ways. Maybe he'd ask you about the music you were listening to (even if he didn't understand it). Perhaps he'd offer to teach you how to drive a car (or whatever post-apocalyptic equivalent they have). He might even, dare I say, try to be… cool. (The results of this would likely be disastrous, but the effort would be appreciated.)

The biggest turning point would probably come during a moment of genuine crisis. Maybe you'd get separated from the group during a walker attack. Perhaps you'd make a mistake that put yourself or others in danger. In that moment, both of you would have to rely on each other, to trust each other, to forgive each other.

Rick would see your strength, your resilience, your growing maturity. You'd see his vulnerability, his fear, his unwavering love for you. You'd realize that even though you were pushing him away, he would always be there for you, no matter what.

Slowly, gradually, the "fuck you" phase would begin to fade. It wouldn't disappear entirely, of course. You'd still have your moments of teenage angst, your rebellious streaks, your desire for independence. But those moments would be tempered by a deeper understanding and appreciation for your father.

Rick, in turn, would learn to accept you for who you were, a complex, independent, sometimes infuriating, but ultimately amazing young woman. He'd learn to trust your judgment, to respect your opinions, to give you the space you needed to grow.

He'd still worry about you, of course. That's what fathers do. But he'd also be incredibly proud of you, of the person you were becoming. He'd see in you the strength, the compassion, and the unwavering spirit that would help shape the future of their community.

And one day, years down the line, you'd find yourself sitting by a campfire, telling stories to your own children. You'd tell them about the apocalypse, about the walkers, about the sacrifices that were made. And you'd tell them about your father, Rick Grimes, the man who taught you how to survive, how to lead, and how to navigate the treacherous waters of teenage rebellion. You might even smile as you recounted your "fuck you" phase, knowing that it was just a small part of a much larger, much more meaningful story.

Sanctuary, post-war, relatively peaceful. Negan, surprisingly, is trying to make amends, contributing to the community, even offering unsolicited (and often unwelcome) advice. He's still got that swagger, that sardonic wit, but there's also a genuine attempt at… well, being a decent human being. And then there's you, his daughter.

Negan had no idea what to expect when he found out he had a daughter, much less how to handle a teenage one. His life had been all about tough decisions, survival, and…okay, maybe a little bit of intimidation. But teenage angst? That stuff was a whole new level of terrifying.

The early days were... awkward. Negan, trying to connect, offering to teach you how to wield Lucille (immediately shut down with a withering glare). He attempts to relate by talking about his past, quickly realizing that tales of Saviors and iron-clad rule are not exactly bonding material. "Dad, seriously? You want sympathy for being a tyrant? Hard pass." That becomes your catchphrase.

Negan, bless his soul, tries everything. He attempts the cool dad routine, offering to drive you and your friends around in a ridiculously large truck (rejected). He tries the heart-to-heart talks, but you just roll your eyes and mutter about how he wouldn't understand. "You think you had it rough? Try dealing with algebra and social media, Dad."

The "eff you" phase manifests in delightful ways. Your clothing choices: all black, ripped everything, possibly involving chains. Your music: loud, angry, and definitely not approved by Negan's classic rock sensibilities. Your conversations: monosyllabic grunts punctuated by sighs so dramatic they could rival a Shakespearean tragedy.

Negan's reaction to all this is a fascinating mix of exasperation and bewildered amusement. He's faced down hordes of walkers, but this? This is a whole different beast. He finds himself muttering under his breath, "I controlled an army, for crying out loud. Why can't I control a teenager?"

One day, he tries a different approach. He finds you holed up in your room, headphones blasting, door adorned with a strategically placed "Keep Out" sign. He knocks, anyway.

"y/n, we need to talk."

"About what? The impending apocalypse brought on by my terrible taste in music?"

Negan sighs. "Look, I get it. You're a teenager. You're supposed to be mad at the world, especially your parents. But this... this is a little much, even for me."

"Oh, I'm sorry, am I not meeting your expectations, Dad? Should I be more subservient? Maybe start carrying around a baseball bat and kissing your boots?"

Negan's jaw tightens. He wants to yell, to lay down the law, to remind you who he used to be. But he doesn't. He takes a deep breath.

"No. I don't want that. I just... I want to understand. What's going on? Why are you so angry?"

You scoff. "You really don't know? You waltz into my life after sixteen years, thinking you can just be 'Dad'? You think I'm just going to forget everything you did? All the people you hurt?"

And there it is. The real reason for your "eff you" phase. It's not just teenage rebellion; it's anger, resentment, and a deep-seated fear that you might be more like him than you want to admit.

Negan looks at you, really looks at you, and sees the pain in your eyes. He sees the vulnerability beneath the layers of sarcasm and teenage angst. And for the first time, he understands.

"You're right," he says softly. "I can't erase the past. I can't undo the things I did. But I can try to be better. I can try to be the dad you deserve."

He pauses, searching for the right words. "Look, y/n, I know I screwed up. Big time. And I know I can't fix everything overnight. But I'm here now. I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere. I want to earn your trust. I want to be someone you can actually talk to. Even if all you want to do is yell at me."

The silence hangs heavy in the air. You stare at him, your expression unreadable. He's actually being sincere. It's... unsettling.

"So, what? You're just going to be 'good' now? Suddenly Mr. Nice Guy?"

"No," Negan says with a wry smile. "I'm still Negan. I'm still going to crack jokes, tell inappropriate stories, and probably embarrass you in front of your friends. But I'm also going to be there for you. I'm going to listen. I'm going to try to understand. And I'm going to protect you, no matter what."

He reaches out and gently pushes a strand of hair away from your face. "You're my daughter, Sarah. And even though you're currently in 'eff you' mode, I love you."

You flinch at the word "love." It feels foreign, uncomfortable, but also… strangely comforting. You look away, trying to hide the tears that are welling up in your eyes.

"Whatever," you mutter, but the edge in your voice is gone.

Negan smiles. It's a small, genuine smile, the kind that reaches his eyes. "That's all I ask for. Just… whatever."

The "eff you" phase doesn't disappear overnight, of course. There are still slammed doors, eye rolls, and plenty of sarcastic remarks. But something has shifted. The anger is still there, but it's mixed with something else: a flicker of hope, a hint of connection, a grudging acceptance that maybe, just maybe, Negan Smith can actually be a decent dad.

He starts leaving little notes on your door with dumb jokes. He tries (and fails) to learn the names of your favorite bands. He even attempts to cook you dinner, resulting in a kitchen disaster that you both end up laughing about.

Slowly, painstakingly, you two start to build a relationship. It's not perfect, far from it. There are arguments, misunderstandings, and moments when you both want to throw your hands up in despair. But there are also moments of genuine connection: shared laughter, late-night talks, and a growing sense of understanding.

Negan learns to navigate the treacherous waters of teenage emotions. He learns to listen without interrupting, to offer advice without being overbearing, and to respect your boundaries (most of the time). You, in turn, start to see him not just as the notorious Negan, but as a flawed, complex human being who is trying his best.

The "eff you" phase eventually fades, replaced by something else: a tentative, fragile, but ultimately powerful bond between a father and daughter. A bond forged in the fires of the apocalypse, tempered by teenage angst, and strengthened by the willingness to forgive and to love, even when it's the hardest thing to do. And who knows, maybe one day you'll even let him teach you how to swing Lucille. Maybe.

Imagine the man, that gruff exterior, the stoic demeanor, suddenly faced with a mini-version of himself (with a dash of her mother's spirit, no doubt) who seems determined to push every single one of his buttons.

Daryl Dixon. The name alone conjures images of crossbows, motorcycles, and a survival instinct honed to a razor's edge. He's a man of few words, his emotions often buried beneath layers of calloused skin and years of hardship. He expresses love through action: a carefully placed rabbit, a watchful eye, a silent promise of protection.

She's got his stubborn streak, her mother's fiery spirit, and a vocabulary that would make a sailor blush (much to Daryl's silent disapproval). Y/ns world revolves around music Daryl probably can’t even comprehend, clothes that are ripped in places that defy logic, and friends who seem to change every other week.

The "fuck you" phase started subtly. Eye rolls that could rival the Grand Canyon, doors slammed with enough force to rattle the windows, and muttered complaints under her breath about everything from dinner to chores. Daryl, ever observant, noticed the change, but initially dismissed it as teenage moodiness. Kids get moody, right? He figured she’d grow out of it. He just needed to give her space.

He was wrong. So very wrong.

The subtle rebellion escalated. Y/n started staying out later, offering vague explanations about "hanging out" with friends. Her grades, once respectable, began to slip. She dyed her hair an alarming shade of purple, and pierced her nose without so much as a by-your-leave. The tension in the Dixon household became thick enough to cut with a knife.

Daryl tried the silent approach first. He figured maybe she was just seeking attention, and ignoring the behavior would make it go away. It didn't. Then he tried reasoning with her, a tactic that proved about as effective as talking to a brick wall. Every attempt at conversation ended with you either storming off in a huff or unleashing a barrage of sarcastic remarks that left Daryl feeling more confused than angry.

One evening, after y/n blew off her chores to go to a concert, Daryl finally snapped. "get your ass back here and do those dishes," he growled, his voice low and dangerous. Years of fighting walkers and bandits had taught him how to command respect, but it seemed his daughter was immune.

"Why should I?" she retorted, her voice dripping with teenage defiance. "It's not like you ever do anything around here anyway."

That stung. Daryl might not be the most expressive dad, but he worked tirelessly to provide for you scavenging, hunting, and building a life in a world that had been ravaged by chaos. To hear her say he didn't do anything…it felt like a punch to the gut.

"You ungrateful little..." he started, catching himself before he said something he'd regret. He took a deep breath, trying to regain his composure. "I work my ass off to keep you safe, to make sure you have food on the table. The least you can do is pull your own weight."

"Safe?" Y/n scoffed. "This isn't safe! This is a prison! You treat me like a kid, you never let me do anything! I hate this place, I hate you!"

The words hung in the air, heavy and toxic. Daryl stared at his daughter, his face a mask of pain. He saw the anger in her eyes, but beneath it, he also saw a flicker of something else: fear.

He realized then that this wasn't just about chores or curfews. This was about you trying to find her place in the world, trying to assert her independence in a world that had taken so much from them. She was pushing him away because she was scared, scared of being vulnerable, scared of needing him.

Daryl, despite his gruff exterior, knew a thing or two about fear. He'd lived with it his whole life. He understood that sometimes, the people we love lash out the most when they're hurting the most.

So, instead of yelling back, instead of grounding her or punishing her, Daryl did something unexpected. He softened. He took a step closer to her, his voice dropping to a near whisper.

"y/n" he said, his eyes searching hers. "I know things ain't easy. I know you're trying to figure things out. But you gotta understand, everything I do, I do it because I love you. You're my daughter. You're all I got."

Y/ns defiance wavered. She looked away, her lower lip trembling slightly. Daryl reached out and gently cupped her chin, forcing her to meet his gaze.

"I ain't always gonna know the right thing to do," he continued, his voice rough with emotion. "I ain't perfect. But I'm always gonna be here for you. Always. Even when you're screaming at me that you hate me."

A tear escaped your eye and traced a path down her cheek. She sniffled, trying to maintain her tough facade, but it was crumbling.

"I don't hate you," she mumbled, her voice barely audible. "I'm just… I don't know."

Daryl pulled her into a hug, holding her tight. He didn't say anything, just let her cry. He knew that words weren't always necessary. Sometimes, all you needed was a strong embrace to let someone know they weren't alone.

The "fuck you" phase didn't disappear overnight. There were still arguments, still slammed doors, still moments of teenage angst that made Daryl want to pull his hair out. But something had shifted. A connection had been re-established, a bridge rebuilt. You knew that beneath the gruff exterior, her father loved her, unconditionally. And Daryl knew that even though his daughter was testing his limits, she was ultimately just trying to find her way back to him.

The journey wouldn't be easy. There would be more bumps in the road, more challenges to overcome. But Daryl Dixon, the man who had survived walkers, bandits, and the apocalypse itself, was ready for the challenge. Because he knew that raising a teenage daughter was, in its own way, the most dangerous and rewarding adventure of all. And he wouldn't have it any other way. He was a dad, and that meant loving Lily, even when she was making him want to bang his head against a wall. He’d learn to navigate the music, the clothes, and the ever-changing friends. He’d learn (or at least try) to understand her world, even if it meant stepping outside of his comfort zone. Because that’s what dads do.

Aaaaaa now I'm curious ❓

[aquamarixx]

what you deserve

Kazutora must've lucked out because he knows you’re way out of his league and maybe too good for no good person like him 

⁺₊ ❆ ANGSTMAS 2024 ENTRY ❆ ₊⁺ pairing hanemiya kazutora x reader word count 1.6k words tags aged up, final timeline, angst, hurt navigation

Life has been good—or at least better—for Kazutora.

He could almost call it normal. Almost.

But despite years of therapy and the steady routine he built after his second stint in prison, there are things that still scare him. 

Relationships.

Whether platonic or romantic, he treads carefully. Always cautious. Always on guard, terrified of scaring people off—or worse, hurting them. He had tried dating once, only to back out at the last moment when Chifuyu and Baji set him up with someone. That’s how bad it is.

His past still held him in a chokehold, haunting every corner of his life. The fear of causing harm—be it emotional or physical—lurks in the shadows. And all he could do was brace himself, waiting for the inevitable crash.

That’s why Kazutora never thought he’d find himself dating someone like you.

You were everything he wasn’t. Beautiful, smart, independent. You’d finished college, held a stable corporate job, and had a loving family. You seemed so perfect, so normal—a person whose life was so well put together that it made his mess of a past feel even more glaring.

In short, you’re someone who definitely had their shit together. 

He first met you at XJ Land, the pet shop where he worked. Chifuyu ran the place, and it had become Kazutora’s sanctuary—safe and simple. You became a regular there, often bringing in your tuxedo cat, Kuro, for grooming. 

You were always cheerful, always making conversation with him, Baji, and Chifuyu. And while you treated them warmly, Kazutora noticed that you gave him just a little more attention.

You weren’t subtle about it, either. You flirted with him in small, gentle ways, watching with amusement as he stumbled over his words. He thought you were out of his league from the start.

And one day, you asked him out. Against all his instincts, he said yes.

Who is he to say no to the kind regular who doted on her cat like it was the center of the universe? The same person who gave him confident smiles and listened intently when he shared cautious snippets of his life. The same person who accepted him without judgment, without hesitation.

Months later, you were still together, and Kazutora found himself happier than he ever thought he could be. It felt… surreal. How perfectly you fit into his arms. How your presence grounded him in a reality he was afraid to believe in. How you filled the empty corners of his life with light.

But even that happiness came with a shadow. His dark past, his trauma and insecurities he couldn’t shake no matter how hard he tried. The same ones he could only keep at bay. Ones he can never extinguish until it's truly gone. 

It was supposed to be a good day—your first Christmas together. You had dragged him out of the house to shop for decorations and gifts, holding his hand as you navigated the bustling streets.

To you, it was mundane and fun. To him, it was a glimpse of a future he dared to dream of—a life where moments like these felt normal.

He felt light, almost carefree, until you bumped into your friends from college.

Kazutora stayed quiet as you introduced him, squeezing his hand reassuringly. But the conversation quickly turned sour to his liking, and it was like knives twisting in his chest.

"So, what do you do?" one of them asked Kazutora politely. He stuttered for a moment, a bit shy to say what he does for a living, in front of your friends who are probably well established like yourself. 

*"He works at a pet store," you answered for him, noticing how he froze. Your tone was proud, but Kazutora couldn’t stop himself from imagining the judgment in their eyes. They didn’t say anything outright, but the polite nods felt like daggers to him.

The conversation veered off course when one of your friends casually mentioned your ex-boyfriend, now working at a bank. Another added something about a guy who used to have a crush on you, now climbing the corporate ladder in pharmaceuticals.

He knew that you’ve dated other guys before him. But he never really asked about them. Maybe he doesn’t want to compare himself to them. Or hurt himself thinking how much of a downgrade he is. 

Kazutora forced a smile, but inside, it felt like the air was thinning. Even if you’re in the middle of the street, it feels like there were invisible walls closing in on him. He tugged at your hand, murmuring something about needing to get going, and you, sensing his discomfort, quickly excused yourselves.

Back at your apartment, you noticed how quiet Kazutora had become. The warmth of your shared apartment was meant to feel like a haven, especially now during the holidays. The glow of the Christmas tree lights danced across Kazutora’s face as he sat stiffly on the couch, shoulders tense, staring at his hands.

You knew that the encounter earlier had brought an awkward tension that Kazutora couldn’t seem to shake. Now, he seemed distant—almost unreachable.

To cheer him up, you pulled out your Christmas gift for him—a carefully chosen leather bracelet engraved with something meaningful between the two of you.

“Here,” you said softly, placing the neatly wrapped box in front of him before placing a chaste kiss on his cheek. “Merry Christmas, Tora.”

He didn’t respond. Instead, he stared at the gift like it was a weight too heavy to bear.

"Why do you even bother?" he said, his voice low and bitter.

You froze. "What do you mean?"

"This." He gestured vaguely at the gift, then at himself. "Us. Why are you even wasting your time with me? You could do so much better, but instead, you’re stuck with me. A guy who works at a pet store and can’t even give you half of what you deserve."

"Kazutora—" you started, but he didn’t let you finish.

“No, listen to me!” His voice cracked as he cut you off, raw and trembling. “You’re everything I’m not. You’re smart, beautiful, and successful. And me? I’m just… nothing. Just a guy with a criminal record, stuck working at a pet store, barely holding his life together. You should go back to one of those guys your friends were talking about. At least they can give you what you deserve.” 

You flinched, his sudden outburst breaking your heart. “Kazutora, what are you even saying? I love you, and I—”

“Don’t!” he interrupted, his tone sharp, almost desperate. “You shouldn’t waste your love on someone like me. Everything is temporary, and I’m just another mistake waiting to happen.”

Your heart twisted painfully as you reached for his hand, but he pulled away, standing abruptly.

"Stop it!" you shouted, tears brimming in your eyes. "You don’t get to decide what I want, Kazutora. I chose you because I love you. I don’t care about your past or where you work. None of that matters to me."

He laughed bitterly, running his hands through his hair in frustration. “Don’t say that! Don’t… don’t act like I deserve that. I don’t. You’re just going to leave, just like everyone else. You’re going to realize I’m broken, and you’ll hate me for it.”

You stepped closer, your voice breaking. “I'm not gonna leave you, Kazutora. You’re—.”

But Kazutora shook his head, tears streaming down his face. "You don’t understand. I’ll just drag you down. I’ll ruin everything, just like I always do. You deserve someone who can actually make you happy, someone who isn’t broken."

"You’re not broken," you whispered, but he didn’t believe you. He couldn’t.

“Do you know what it’s like to ruin every good thing in your life? I do.” His voice cracked, his fists clenched at his sides. “And I won’t let that happen to you. You deserve better.”

His words hung in the air, heavy and suffocating. 

You tried to stop him, but he was already at the door. "Kazutora, please don’t do this. Please—”

Before you could say another word, he grabbed his jacket and stormed out of the apartment. The slam of the door echoed through the apartment, leaving you in the cold grip of frustration and confusion.

Kazutora walked through the cold streets, replaying every word in his mind. By the time he reached the shared house he lives in with Chifuyu and Baji, his chest felt hollow. Like the void he’s oh so afraid of has swallowed everything whole and left him nothing but pain and despair.

Chifuyu was still awake, sitting in the kitchen with a cup of tea. He looked up as Kazutora walked in, his face etched with concern.

"Hey… everything okay?" Chifuyu asked cautiously.

Kazutora just shook his head and muttered, "I’m fine. Don’t worry about it."

Chifuyu didn’t press, though his worried gaze lingered as Kazutora trudged upstairs.

In his room, Kazutora collapsed onto his bed, clutching his phone. His thumb hovered over your contact for what felt like hours before he finally typed out a message:

You deserve better than me. Let’s break up. I’m sorry.

He hit send and curled up in bed, his heart breaking into pieces. To him, this was the only gift he could give you. A chance at a better life without him.

The holidays weren’t supposed to feel like this, but Kazutora convinced himself it was better this way. Even if it meant being alone. Even if it meant breaking both of your hearts.

It was just another Christmas marked by pain, another reminder that happiness for someone like him was always temporary.

amari's notes: this is the very first tokyo rev fic i've ever written, and for kazutora no less! im grateful for the request and i hope you enjoy this one @inu1gf! happy holidays! anyway, I’d love to hear your thoughts, so feel free to leave a reply or drop an ask or even a request! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

[sammy-deserves-better]

Binge read through Amicus Curiae (credits to the ever talented @courtney-deserved-better for writing it) and hollllllllly shit it’s one of the best things I’ve read, like it’s helped change my perspective on a lot of these characters and it’s just so??? Fucking???? Good???

Platonic Alecourtney, the loves of my lives, I love that they understand what it’s like to be burned (in some cases quite literally) and beat down and humiliated, that they find this comfort in one another because of it but there’s still gonna be times they don’t always click, they don’t always understand!!! They love each other, they argue, they tease, they help each other, they’re just so so so so so good and the way they work together is amazing, they still have all their shit from Total Drama, they were still once villains, they’re strong and intimidating and just a little bit stupid when it comes to caring about themselves because they think they’re fine (they’re not). JUST AGAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And the development between Kitty and Alejandro’s friendship, just the general understanding of being the younger sibling that’s underestimated, or pushed aside, granted with very different outcomes for the both of them.

Noah and Owen’s friendship as well, sure they were buddies in RR but it’s just given the time to really show and flourish because of the ever changing POVs between characters (which I really appreciate, it’s the best way to handle a RR/TD rewrite because you’re not just focusing on one person’s perspective and you only see developments that are focused around them).

Even just subtle things like how Geoff shows care for Courtney after he’s been personally stung by Alejandro, or the way that Kitty’s social skills helps benefit the Sisters in the long run because of her way to connect to people so easily!!

The fact that yes, Total Drama was an absolutely horrific and traumatic show that fucked up people far more than they like to admit and it’s just properly displayed here with Courtney’s issues with just about everything, the physical problems it’s caused Alejandro, and this sort of numbness that’s surrounded the TD contestants so that when Don, an actually sane host, does or says anything that isn’t completely fucked up, they all just have to stand and stare for a minute because (for some of them) their lives have been a constant tornado of insanity, pain and misery all under the control of Chris.

THE SISTERS DYNAMIC AS WELL OH MY GOOOOOOD, just the fact we really get to flesh out the reasoning behind Emma’s behaviour, and that Kitty is actually allowed to be upset and emotional at the way her own sister acts and treats her??? Just how complicated Emma is in general, being the oldest that has to practically mother her little sister because she didn’t have anyone else that could do it!!! The way that Kitty helps break down Emma’s walls, helps Emma find this vulnerability she’s been hiding, the care, the slow understanding and just becoming a better older sister??? Yes??? Please??? Oh my god these two

Noah and Emma’s friendship??? Like yes we actually get to see these two snarky people bounce off of each other so easily without having to worry about TD’s awful romance formula that usually scrapes both people in the relationship down to just being in a relationship, THEY HAVE BANTER!!!!

Alenoah…Alenoah my beloved, I’ll admit that I’ve never been that fussed with the ship before but god…you just get to absolutely adore the way they bounce off of each other, the teasing, the fact that Alejandro admired Noah and was genuinely hurt and wanted to be his friend in World Tour. The fact that Noah’s getting to see how Alejandro has changed and how he’s not a slippery eel, the way that Alejandro gets to see the determination that Noah has and that he’s not just lazy but an actual impressive contestant to go against. THE NICKNAMES!!! THESE GAYS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME!! Love this ship now

I also enjoy the fact that the contestants are actually talking with other contestants rather than be focused solely on their own team, which was a big issue with RR for me!!

This fic is genuinely just such a good read, like I couldn’t just read one chapter and finish there I just had to keep going, it’s so addictive and you’re just waiting to see what happens next!!

ALSO??? MASSIVE COURTEMMA FAN NOW!!!

Like, oh I’m actually in love with this ship now, of course the two emotionally repressed lawyers are rivals that fall in love, of course they start out wanting to go against each other in the court of law only to truly fall in love and want to work together, to start their own firm, to be by each others side!!! TO BE SCARED OF THIS LOVE BECAUSE ALL THEYVE EVER KNOWN IS HATE, HUMILIATION AND DEVASTATION!!!

They’re Ace Attorney nerds, they shouldn’t be trusted around vehicles, they could debate for 3 hours straight with no breaks, they’re so gay for each other but they think it’s just a rivalry thing, just EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM FROM THE MOMENT THEY REALISE THE OTHER IS IN THE RACE TO THE MOMENT THEY FINALLY GET TO KISS WHEN THE CAMERAS ARE OFF AND ITS ALL OVER!!

Actually like a top 5 ship for me now, I need more, I need these lawyer lesbians back

At multiple points throughout this fic I just kept hitting this pose cause oh my GODDDDD

TLDR: Amicus Curiae is such an amazing fic, you’ve got to read it, the individual characters are so wonderfully written and the development of the friendships and relationships between characters is built so well. Please, if you ever have the opportunity you’ve got to read it!!

[hey-august]

Buggy thinking reader insert likes Shanks more is for ever and always gonna be one of my favorite things because the angst potential, the comfort potential… delicious.

But also like… ultimate comedy because depending on the dynamic you see him and Shanks having it can also be like: Shanks. Obnoxious wingman.

Buggy fretting over you being in love with Shanks, while not only you aren’t, but also Shanks doing his best combination of „I know all of this guys dumbest moments because we grew up together“ and „WHOOOO!!! BUGGY!!“

He wouldn’t even need to sell you on Buggy but he’s constantly just hyping him up to you anyways, Buggy is so funny. Buggy can juggle with daggers! Shanks is a hot mess in the fashion department, yes, hahah, yeah he knows, if you want to talk to someone who can tell colors apart you should go to BUGGY, now BUGGY is a stylish guy, you need to know your shit to make clown fashion look good.

…. Also speaking of clowns, one time when they were eleven Buggy got stung by a bee on his nose and it took away like fifty percent of his vision because it swelled so- „CAN IT, YOU BASTARD!“

Buggy not only being so blind he mistakes your advances as being intended for Shanks, but also not even realizing Shanks is just constantly trying to get you two closer as well.

aaaAAAHHH Anon, I love the idea of Shanks trying to be Buggy's hype man, and doing that plus more. C'mon, they're not embarrassing stories, they're funny! Endearing! Here, have a 550 word stream of consciousness about this trio's dynamic:

Both men can easily be the center of attention. But maybe Buggy's circle is intimidating. Maybe not. Maybe you're nervous about approaching him just yet.

Grab a drink, chat it up with the easy to talk to guy at the bar, get invested in some childhood story he's telling a crowd, a story full of adventure and danger. Plus some goofy antics that only two best friends could get into.

And when Shanks calls out to the so-called friend for confirmation about a particular detail (what happened first - the swarm of bees that blocked out the sun or falling into that pulsating mud pit ), it's the guy you've had your eye on all night.

And Shanks - the schmoozer, the sweet talker - is too quick to pick up on that subtle shift in your expression. Wide eyed not because of the fantastic story he's telling, but for a different reason. So you two keep chatting, and the circle of conversation shrinks until it's you two and stories about Buggy.

Finally, eventually, why did it take so long, Buggy makes his way over and Shanks introduces you two. Aaaand nothing. Buggy looks you over and scoffs. Shanks can go hook up with whoever and do whatever the fuck he wants - Buggy doesn't need a consolation prize.

That was...rude. It would have been absolutely crushing if it wasn't for Shanks clapping a hand on Buggy's shoulder and shaking sense into him. Chiding him for being so blind - how did Buggy not notice that you have been undressing him all night from across the bar? Or how you'd whip your head around and pretend to be looking anywhere but at the clown when his attention drifted anywhere near you.

It's obvious Buggy isn't going to believe any of that, so you decide to jump in. And, you know, word vomit every thought in your head.

"He's right, I think you're cute and I want to buy you a drink and he said you like hot dogs so we can go get a bite to eat, my treat, if you don't mind, I hope you don't mind, we've been talking about you because I wanted to get to you more because I...think you're cute." You might have blacked out while talking because you hardly remembered what came out of your mouth. It wasn't until the end that you realized both men were silent and staring at you.

Shanks laughed first. Of course he did. Buggy didn't. He turned red. Redder than the nose on his face. You thought it was the nicest shade of vermillion, but wow could it get brighter when this guy had emotions.

You two were talking about him? What did Shanks say?!

Only good things, really! That he's talented with knives. That he's clever with chemicals and science. Oh and one time he accidentally blew off his eyebrows. And that Buggy has the best jokes. In fact, there's one particular joke about a mermaid, a pirate, and a sandwich that no one can tell like Buggy.

And there's the light. The sparkle. The opportunity. All the pieces have been played.

Shanks drowns the rest of his drink while Buggy leans in to tell you the joke. That joke. What you didn't know is it's rather raunchy. Downright filthy. And exactly what you and Buggy needed to start a fun night getting to know each other.

[goldfades]

angsty blurb w/Trevor🤭

you asked and you shall receive…

─ warnings | angsty asf, don’t say i didn’t warn ya! cheating, trevor is a fraternity ASSHOLE, just mean ass shit

you’d heard the stories about trevor but you’d chose to ignore them — and now, tears streaming down your eyes you really wish you hadn’t. giving him the benefit of the doubt multiple times after he’d shown you exactly who he really was, trying to ignore the warning signs.

as you sat there on his couch, tears cascading down my cheeks, you replayed every moment, every warning sign you had chosen to ignore. it started with little things, subtle remarks that cut deeper than they should have. each time, you brushed them off, convinced that beneath his rough exterior lay a heart of gold. the lies, oh the lies! they wove a web so intricate, so deceptive, that you found yourself trapped before you had even realized. he promised change, redemption, but now you realized it was all just another layer of deceit.

"her, trevor?" your voice came out quiet but fuming. "her?"

she was the complete opposite of you — looks, personality and everything else. and yet, despite the glaring differences between you, trevor had chose her. the realization cut like a knife through your already wounded heart. how could he betray you with someone so unlike you in every aspect?

her presence haunted you, her image etched into your mind like a scar you couldn't erase. you couldn't help but compare yourself to her, picking apart every flaw that made you feel inferior in trevor's eyes.

"i-i didn't mean for it to happen," he pleaded, his voice tinged with desperation. "it was a mistake, i swear. you know you're the one i love."

"you don't fuck other people when you're in love, trevor!" you shouted, your voice coming out shaky as you watched his expression change from emotional to slightly agitated, as if you were the one who was inconveniencing him.

"come on, don't be so dramatic," he scoffed, his voice laced with contempt. "it was just a mistake. you're blowing this way out of proportion."

his words hit you like a slap in the face, his lack of remorse fueling the fire of your anger but also deepening the wound. how dare he dismiss your pain so callously, as if his infidelity was something trivial?

"you did it more than once, trevor. you're a fucking traitor," your voice broke as you spoke, feeling all the emotions from the last 8 months come down on you. how did something so perfect, become something so terrible?

eight months of love, laughter, and shared dreams now felt like a cruel joke. the memories of happiness now tainted by the bitter taste of betrayal.

his expression remained indifferent, as if your pain meant nothing to him. it was a cruel realization that he was never the person you thought he was. the man you loved had been nothing but a facade, a mask hiding the true nature of his deceitful character.

with a deep breath, you squared your shoulders, meeting his gaze with determination. "i'm done, trevor," you declared, each word dripping with finality.

"oh trust me, you'll be back. like you always do," trevor's voice came out so bitter, you almost didn't recognize him. is that all you were to him? a mug, a girl who always came back? who was always there?

for a moment, doubt threatened to creep in, whispering its insidious lies in the nooks of your mind. had you really been so blind, so naive to believe in his empty promises over and over again?

but then, something inside you shifted. anger surged forth, fueling the flames. you refused to be reduced to a mere afterthought, a pawn in his selfish games.

"no, i won't," you countered, your voice firm. "i won't be, i deserve more than being treated like an option, like a backup plan for when it's convenient for you."

with that, you turned away, leaving trevor standing there, his words hanging in the air like a bitter echo.

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[vitaminseetarot]

Last Quarter Moon PAC: What Are You Harvesting? 🌗🍓🍹

Welcome, one and all, to my last chapter of the four-part moon series! In the beginning, all we had was the seed of potential. We then added some tender love and compost, tending to its stretching stems and budding leaves. We then sat back and witnessed the colorful flower blooming forth, reflecting our work well done.

Now it's finally time to take a look at what will be harvested from this growth. How will it sweeten your life? How will it ensure that more growth can continue to the next month? What blessings will at last be bestowed that will, with careful preservation, last through the winter and beyond?

Take a peek at the three packages of fruit you see down below. These are of the frozen kind so they will last for many smoothies and muffins to come. (Brand names are blotted out for your convenience.)

Pile 1 - Chilly Blueberries Pile 2 - Snowy Strawberries Pile 3 - Frosty Plums

Pile 1

Cards: Four of Swords, Three of Cups, Nine of Cups; Dandelion Wish, Avocado - Prosperity, Scorpio Moon - Camouflage, 6 - Freedom

I guess it works that I called this the Chilly Blueberry pile cause it seems like you're just looking to chill. You've been through the long haul this last month, and for you the growth hasn't come easily. Now you're being greatly encouraged to kick back and relax for the last few days of the season remaining.

You've been spending a great amount of time working on your internal issues. This pile has done some immense shadow work, and perhaps you sense that you're still in the thick of it, laying low and addressing some old fears. These fears may have to do with something you've been wishing and longing for. There's almost a feeling of treating shadow work as a full time job, wanting to purge and clear as much as possible to make room for desires. Which isn't a bad thing! It can be the recommended thing for many people (like one of the other piles, per example wink), but there's also such a thing as overdoing it. Sometimes you get to a place where you've squeezed out every tear cried out and felt the rock bottom of rock bottom, where you're hitting impenetrable bedrock. Pile 1, this is your reminder that you've been doing GREAT work improving yourself, but now it's time to breathe.

You're going to be harvesting peace, relaxation, a chance to decompress and distract yourself with good times. Your friends could be trying to pull you out of the house or into a discord chat -- join them! Don't let yourself get distracted by the heavy emotions at this time. Not all shadow work is productive, like with anything it can be habitual and keep you ruminating in a little loop. You are protected as far as social relations are concerned. You're being given the space to relate your deep inner work with the work others have been doing. I can't tell you how refreshing it is to be in the thick of some deep karmic issues, only to find out a close friend or even acquaintance has been going through a similar ordeal.

Right now, even with all the freaky planet shit happening out there, don't think that the next few months will be like your last few. You're gonna undergo a subtle transformation on your own naturally after this harvest. You'll be moving into a place of wish making and abundance. This may even boost your sense of financial freedom. It could be that some of your shadow work involved money, but I'm really getting abundance in general with this pile. You don't have to overwork yourself to get to that place, pile 1, you're already approaching it. There's no need to get a 100% completion rating on your spiritual practice. You're not being rewarded for hard work, you're being rewarded because you're in the right place and time to be receiving the abundance coming for you. The shadow work is to help you get in a better mindset and receive without letting old baggage get in the way. It's not a forever thing.

Pile 2

Cards: Five of Pentacles, King of Pentacles, Page of Cups; Turtle Creek, Strawberry - Affection, Leo Rising - Shine, 5 - Heart Healing

How awesome is it that you got the strawberry card for your strawberry reading?! Maybe you just really like eating them; the card does talk about affection after all! With Leo Rising, I'm feeling that this pile has been really affected by the Leo Venus retrograde. Lucky for you, the planet will station direct in a few days, gradually bringing back in a feeling of overall sweetness to your life like a tide coming in.

It could have been that your self-worth took a small hit in some way. Some things may have happened that tested you just a little too much. You wanted more out of your circumstances, but when you ask and ask your spirit guides and higher self and nothing seems to happen on the surface at the end of the day, that can really wreck confidence over time. You'd hear things like "maybe it's just not meant for you," to which you'd respond, "then what is?" You're about to gain a lot more clarity as to what is for you, and that no matter what your doubts say, pile 2, you deserve this!

That belief is very important--it keeps you from creating blind spots where opportunities lie. I felt relief pulling the King of Pentacles in the middle. The King does not think at all about what he deserves, he simply has it. He listened to that one random shampoo commercial's message "because you're worth it, baby" and stuck to that philosophy for the rest of his life. He needed this confidence because with Pentacles (and as hinted by your Turtle Creek card), success doesn't happen overnight. Sometimes it can be hard to tell if something is going to work out in the long run. We often have to wave our hair around like supermodels and strut our stuff as though we know it will anyway. (I just got "Good As Hell" by Lizzo in my head. You might benefit from pampering yourself a little to remind yourself of your worthiness.)

There's going to be a moment of inspiration that comes to you this harvest, like an artistic idea or emotional epiphany that will flood through your slow moving creek. Page of Cups doesn't see you as really stuck, but will help push you along either way. Your lack mentality is being restored to a fullness mentality, and with this comes a strong wave of emotional resolution. Letting yourself feel the hurt of lack for just a moment in time can help you clear it out of your system to make room for healthier and better feelings that actually stick. You're allowed to set down your doubts for now and be more vulnerable and open to giving and receiving. It may not seem so, but vulnerability is important to creating flow, and flow is when we sense that we are moving with life and not against it, so that naturally things will work out for us. When you're ready to open your doors to life with softness and tender affection, so will the doors to what you've been dreaming of.

Pile 3

Cards: VII Chariot, Queen of Swords, Ten of Cups; Cottage Hill, Watermelon - Fun, Sagittarius Rising - Adventure, 9 - Self Acceptance

Before I flipped over your cards, I looked at the Cottage Hill card and imagined how cozy you've been for the last while, maybe a season or two where you stayed home and felt comfortable. I even channeled a feeling of enjoying old familiar songs and games. Then I turned the cards around and got the exact opposite message!

Your cards are nudging towards pushing yourself out there and taking in the goodness of life without getting muddled in the details. You've been in a state of analysis (paralysis?) for some time, and the only thing you're harvesting, whether you like it or not, is the chance to go out and enjoy yourself. It doesn't have to involve others, it can be just you looking to try something new (maybe rock climbing isn't in your taste, but there are many other things to explore). Forgive me for saying this, but we all know what dried plums are: prunes. And what do prunes help with? Of course, getting things going! The Chariot isn't always a card of traveling, but you are specifically having your travel experiences sweetened this time around. A dash of spontaneity and whimsy has been added to your harvest. There is stuff out there waiting for you to see it and experience it for yourself.

Please don't think that this time to run around and enjoy yourself is a waste of time, pile 3. Do you know how hard it is to want to move ahead when you have 6-8 planets in retrograde? Cut yourself a bit of slack. Being a successful human being doesn't mean never allowing yourself to feel content with the present, especially since for many people being successful means exactly that. You also never know what these greater experiences could bring you in the long run. A good time spent away can be like a shower that prepares you for the next big thing to tackle. It could be hiding blessings in between, waiting for you to seize them.

The Queen is Swords approaches everything with discernment, so you can work with her energy by finding out what sort of thing you would like to do or see next. It doesn't mean planning every single thing out. The best itineraries keep you from getting lost from point A to point B, while also leaving room for exploration. Maybe you'd be interested in joining a computer programming class, for example. It doesn't mean you have to sign up for the full major. Taking things a step at a time can really help you determine what's better for you further down the road. Self-Acceptance card talks about how to deal with our tendency to self-contradict. There's a part of you what wants to move ahead, and part of you that wants to stay put in the comfort zone. Plan out your "itinerary" so you're not caught in black-and-white thinking. If you're feeling the resistance to move, just try it a little at a time. You'll have a lot more fun this way.

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[pearlescentparade]

MOREVWINGEDSTAFF AND RIVAL READER. HUZZAH

I think that the moment Wingedstaff finally understood you was when they started to flirt with you and gauge your reaction and see that your not actually as suave and cool as you make yourself out to be. You act like your hot shit all the time but the minute he flirts back you get all flustered and jittery. Not in a over the top way its not glaringly obvious, its actually pretty subtle. you try to play it off but Wingedstaff found a moment of vulnerability and immediately pressed down on it, good for him.

Its so satisfying to him to watch someone who he previously found so infuriating and unreadable suddenly become so understandable to him, he's honestly a little disapointed in himself because he should figured out your true nature a long time ago.

You think everythings a game, you throw yourself into being a magical girl because its the only source of entertainment in your life. Because your life away from all the flash and sparkle is lonely and boring.

You havent been given any romantic or even platonic attention, its why your detached from other people, its why you dont care who you endanger or hurt. Humor is a common coping mechanism so of course you never treat anything seriously!!

But what he really takes a note of is how you pretend to be shallow. You pretend like there is nothing to you other than snark and the general need to be annoying, you dont really show the full range of emotion that most normal people have, he's never seen you upset or actually angry or even scared. You treat yourself as much of a joke than you do everyone around you but you're obviously so much more under than the facade you put up.

When he starts to date you its to know what your actually like deep down, and slowly, he watched your walls crumble as your small moments of vulnerability and genuineness reveal so much to him. He even catches you acting less violent and rude when your out in your magical girl form, so clearly he's impacting you in some significant way and he feels a bit flattered by it. You showing him what your actually like deep down just warms his heart, its so painfully cute and endearing to him and before he knows it he's falling for you, he doesnt hate it though, not even a little bit.

-🍊🍨

eveyrtime u send in winged m staff x reader it feels like youre beating me with a barbed wire bat and im begging you to stop THERES SO MUCH HELLO IM ?? SHOCKED SOMEONE WOULD WRITE SO MUCH FOR HIM??? /vpos /silly

ough,,,, reader whos always been seen as a joke with winged staff who counters your deflections with serious and genuine responses and it throws you off SO much LIKE HE MAKES U FEEL LIKE SOMEONE WORTH LISTENING TO,, winged staff said "i could fix them" n by the swords he mfin did.

[blacklegsanjiii]

Do I love Reiju a whole lot? Yes. Do I also love to gave Sanji even more trauma? YES!

So here am I, with a new universe: Evil!Reiju au!

Reiju is still born with emotions, but there two things: 1) she has so little emotions that they're almost nonexistent 2) the little feelings and personality she has are from Judge.

So yeah, instaed of a caring and kind old sister Reiju who feels so much, we have a Reiju who is cruel and manipulative and pretends to care about Sanji. She treats Sanji like he is nothing more than a toy who she can simply play with it's feelings, and not like it's her damn little brother.

But she puts on an act. Reiju uses (fake) sweet words and (fake) gentle touches to make the blonde trust her. Subtly hurting him when she's bored.

Then the dunsheon, where her mask finally falls. Of course, completely breaking what was left of Sanji's heart. During the next two years, even if she doesn't beat him, her cruel words hurt just as much.

After Sanji runs away, he doesn't trust no one. It's just on the rock, 2 years after, that he starts to trust this man who was unrealistic kind. They're rescued from the rock and Zeff starts to treat him like an actual father would treat a son. This always makes Sanji's heart warm and give him the need to cry a little because for the first time since his mother died someone truly loves him.

Sanji is still gentle with women, but not much like canon. He would fight one if needed and, actually, he's kinda afraid of them deep down and a little uncomfortable, too. Zeff don't know the whole thing but he knows his eggplant have been through a traumatic thing and he can't and wouldn't never blame him, he would be a shame of a father and an idiot if he did.

Then Sanji joins the StrawHats because, curiously, something inside his stitched heart tells him he should. And Sanji follows his heart.

Things go pretty much like canon. With some differences, like: East Blue Polycule happens, Sanji is always suspicious of everyone (all the crew notices this, so at least one of them always is with him when the ship stops at some island and less gentle over women.

Then the TimeSkip, where WCI happens. Reiju still puts the fake cuffs but this time with the intentions of messing with her brother's mind. She makes little threats about exploding his hands and/or poisoning, and it's until they're almost leaving Whole Cake and she tells the cuffs are fake.

Also I need 0 & 3ji to have a argument who is like "You're too emotional, Sanji" "Maybe I am, but you never about me at all, Reiju" "Why would I care about a worthless failure?" "... I thought you cared about me, you always acted like you did before the thing" at the end of the arc. With the Sanji rescue team watching and looking at Reiju with anger.

They go at Wano and everything happens. Then after the fight Luffy, Brook, Chopper and Nami ask about the argument and Sanji tells to the whole crew, because the other also want to know. He tells them about his childhood, how Reiju pretended to care for him. The dunsheon and how cruel she actually was.

All the StrawHats think that Reiju is nothing more than a cruel people.

Okay, I love this, but I think it would forever fuck with Sanji and women moreso than you think? And like his whole relationship with Nami is probably so fucking skewed? Jesus. She's needlessly cruel and just manipulates the shit out of Sanji constantly. He would be bending over backwards to get any smidge of affection from her until his escape but is so terrified of just disappointing her that it is just negatively impacts his expression towards women so much that Sanji inevitably just is so scared of them and so his immediate reaction is to fawn.

Reiju notices it's more fun to her to toy with Sanji like a doll when she's young and Judge encourages it since it's just to the failure. It's not like anything wrong will happen. She's subtle about the way she hurts, sharp words and back handed compliments to that ache and sting the blond's heart when he's just a child, turning to outright malicious intent when she finds Sanji in the dungeon because he's supposed to be dead and the words. Sanji tries to be good so she can get him out but she just tells him this is where failures belong if not in the ground. She doesn't understand how their mother loved such a failure because it's impossible. Still, when she visits, he tries. He tries until he manages to escape and run away, helmet weighing heavily on him. But he's freed from Germa and the helmet and he starts working and keeps to himself. He doesn't trust anyone and doesn't believe himself worthy of Zeff's sacrifice. He doesn't understand why someone would sacrifice so much for a failure like him.

When it comes to fighting women Sanji would really prefer not to. They talk sweet and it sends him spiraling more of than not. Zeff is actually concerned about how Sanji's reaction to women slapping him. Sanji will fight back after a few hits but his preference for not fighting women is huge and he's more trying to calm them down and please them than argue or fight back. He looks afraid more often than not and when women do compliment him he doesn't believe them, not that he believes a lot of people at first but with the men he believes eventually, but he never believes the women who compliment his food. It's like he's afraid of women. He fawns for over them but flinches away from them, no matter what the crew does to make him more confident with women there's just something lying underneath the surface and they don't know what.

When Sanji joins the Strawhat crew and after Arlong Park, Nami notices he's wary around her and starts taking it personally until she notices it's just every woman he's like that with. Vivi, the vendors, every woman. Her and the other boys are already dating at this point and they're debating on the best way to approach the subject. Sanji doesn't seem like he'll be that receptive to a conversation about it, he noticeably tenses when Vivi calls out to them before relaxing and then flinches when Robin makes her presence known. But she acts differently towards Sanji, she offers small smiles and plain words, not praise though nor does she demand anything from him. Robin eases Sanji's tension with women, it looks so easy for them to be around each other but she moves slow and announces her presence in a quiet tone. When they ask Robin about it she only smiles in answer and walks away. Sanji starts dating the rest of the East Blue crew after Ennies Lobby, he's calmer and the crew protective, at least one person is always with him it seems. He tries not to flinch when Nami moves to fast towards him and apologizes when he does. But he does that for everyone, but his partners especially. There's just something they can't quite place what happened.

Until after the timeskip and WCI happens. When the rescue team meets Reiju and Yonji they wish them luck in saving the failure, Reiju has a sickly sweet smile that's all saccharine and she and Yonji laugh about how it's unlikely Sanji will be alive as they leave and the crew is confused and scared. Like it's some sort of joke, Sanji's life is a joke. Of course Reiju is also watching her brothers beat the failure up and not helping, she jokes about poisoning him and threatens to take him away so the cuffs will explode his hands, says she'll say she found him running. Sanji can just feel everything like he's a child all over again, the pain, the words, the hurt of his family not loving him over and over again almost as bad as it was. Then he hears Pudding and Reiju talk about killing him and they're laughing at him and Sanji gives up, goes to find his captain who he beat the shit out of and is just....crying and sobbing. Nami and Luffy are concerned about what's going on but they'll deal with everything after they save Sanji, when they reunite with the other two. Sanji still insists on saving them and Luffy and Nami don't like it but do as he wishes. During the escape Sanji is worried about his hands when Reiju points out he was a fun toy but the cuffs are fake, they won't take his hands. It was just more fun to make him think they would.

"Maybe if you weren't so emotional it wouldn't be so fun." Reiju smiles at him.

"So what if I am? You all never cared about me at all!" Sanji yells back with a broken voice.

"I don't know why anyone would, you're just a failure. Loving you seems exceptionally difficult, but what would I know?" Reiju laughs.

"You did when we were kids. Until-"

"No, I didn't." Reiju cuts him off. "You're a toy, Sanji. Nothing more, but all the less." Reiju waves off as she leaves and everyone is appalled at what was said. Nami and Luffy are holding Sanji is trying to be brave for them. When they make it to Wano Luffy runs and finds their partners and starts telling them about Reiju and Judge and how awful they were to Sanji and Usopp points out that it explains a lot about Sanji. Zoro is seething and says he should have been there, because he and Usopp are hearing only what Luffy and Nami heard not anything from Sanji. Sanji seems to be trying to avoid the topic of conversation for the most part and they can't exactly stick together in Wano so that makes it ten times worse for Zoro who can't exactly get information from the cook until after he wakes up from the raid. The cook is buried in a cuddle puddle and Usopp is telling his wild stories to try to ease the tension as he combs through Sanji's hair and Zoro is growling about going to kill his birth family.

[siereads]

The Sunbearer Trials Review Notes

Notes under a read more for spoilers

I really appreciate the little prologue that lays out the mythology of the book. Some books like to just throw you into the deep end so having that foundation is nice.

Calling it now, Teo is being built up as the Unlikely Hero. Willing to bet real money (that my broke ass does not have) that he's going to end up in the trials to be a Sunbearer. Also, talking to birds sounds like an awful ability to have. There are Too Many Birds and that sounds like sensory overload hell.

Okay, but like, what is the beef between Teo and Aurelio??? I am too impatient for this!

I like Niya. I agree with her that she should be able to be topless if her brothers can be topless. Free the tiddies! She is also in on the beef with Aurelio and dammit, I need to know! What is the beef here? Why is there beef here? WHAT DID AURELIO DOOOOOO????

The way I literally just screamed "THE FUCK?!" when I got to the bit about sacrificing a literal kid to refuel the Sun Stones. Bruh. Honey bruh. What in the actual fuck?

FUCKING CALLED IT ON TEO.

Xio is literally a BABY (13 is still a baby) and his dad's reaction is 100% a mood.

I do appreciate the fact that one of the kids chosen to compete is deaf. I hope we get to see more of Dezi as the book progresses.

Oh. Okay. Teo and Aurelio used to be besties before Aurelio went to the super special school and turned into a mega douche and let his sister and her bestie treat Teo like dirt. Yeah, I'd have beef too. The fuck.

Xio getting teased as a little bean hurt my heart. Glad he's making friends with Teo and Niya and having his feelings and experiences validated.

Ugh, I hate that any time Aurelio shows even a CRUMB of care about Teo, his sister turns into Captain Mega Cunt. Girl, stfu and sit tf down.

Fuck Ocelo. Little bastard literally out here tryna kill folk.

TEO'S WINGS!!!!! Not me ugly crying with joy at his wings finally being his!

Ocelo ranking dead last in the first trial is what I like to call fucking KARMA. Little douchebag needs to learn their lesson.

Ooooh Niya gonna cut a biiiitch!

Finding out about Teo's half sister fucking hurt. Jfc his poor mom reliving that fucking trauma and now needing to be terrified that she's going to lose her son the same way she lost her daughter. I'm crying again.

Teo sucks at work outs and Aurelio is not a mega douche when he's away from his sister and Ocelo.

Teo. Baby boy. Aurelio isn't pointedly ignoring your existence to piss you off. He's ignoring you because you said some damn hurtful shit when he was genuinely trying to help you not break yourself with your dumbass attempt at working out. Buddy. You didn't even *stretch*.

The more Xio comes out of his shell, the more of a little shit he becomes and I am HERE FOR IT. We love a baby snark.

The demigods are able to have 2 same sex biological parents. I dig it. I like that bit of lore on the gods not being bound to mortal restrictions on reproduction and childbirth.

Teo asking his mom about his sister has me ugly crying. Again.

Ocelo stays getting humbled. Love that for them.

Teo rising in the rankings and doing well in the second trial by sheer gentleness gives me the warm fuzzies.

Teo, Teo, Teo. My sweet, *stupid* boy. INITIATING A FIGHT JUST TO TOUCH THE PRETTY FIRE BOY ISN'T THE BEST WAY TO GET...no, wait, pause, rewind. It's a good way to get *pinned* by the pretty fire boy. Carry on.

Teo and Aurelio getting along and Aurelio's subtle way of saying he doesn't want Teo to die (which Teo's dumbass is NOT picking up on) has me EMOTIONAL GODDAMMIT.

Sol out here playing matchmaker for Teo and Aurelio is, honestly, fucking hilarious.

Aurelio not touching Teo's wings because he had never been given permission catching Teo off guard stings. That boy ain't used to people being respectful of his consent. And Aurelio blushing at being given permission? Ugh. Yes. Just fucking kiss already.

The fourth trial being in a Jade city and Teo getting a hero's welcome has my ass in tears. AGAIN.

Love seeing Teo, Marino, and Dezi have each others' backs in this trial.

Opción, baby girl, whatchu hintin' at? Is there a choice? Can the sacrifice be skipped if the Sunbearer says fuck that shit??? Cuz my baby Xio being in last don't sit right with my SOUL.

Okay but why is no one listening??? Teo's RIGHT. Ffs.

Oh. Oh Huemac. I love him.

Aurelio apologizing was sweet and needed. But that led into discussing the abuse he's suffered at the hands of his mother. I'm...heartbroken and disgusted. He's a fucking CHILD. He doesn't deserve that. Fucking hell.

Okay Auristela's been a bitch the whole time BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN SHE SHOULD FUCKING DIE.

WAIT, WAIT, WAIT HOLD THE FUCK UP. SWEET BABY XIO IS EVIL???? HE WAS EVIL THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME??? WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK?!

Was not expecting Xio to be an obsidian. Does that mean Mala Suerte is too? How did they go undetected for so long? Where did the kids get taken to?

Jesus Lumbre, your son is TRYING. Stop being a cunt. At least some of the gods are being useful. Good luck to the kids tho like damn y'all.

5 stars would read again

[theemporium]

ok I don’t understand how much college maxiel and charlos mean to me

like you and Daniel get together first and you’re just fuck buddies at first but then you realize you have Feelings and he’s actually so Sweet and you’re so used to guys treating you like shit that you run

You run because you’re scared that he’s break your already fragile heart but he’s not one to back down. He ropes his frat brothers into taking care of you in small, subtle ways until you end up storming over to his desk in the library and demanding to know what his problem is, tears in your eyes, and his heart drops. Did he get the wrong signals? He tries to explain and you grab his face and kiss him.

It takes you a bit to actually say the words “I love you” but my god, he beams when he hears it. He loves knowing that he’s one of the few people that resides in your heart.

And then you two meet Max.

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!😭😭😭😭😭

nah because the reader not being used to someone caring for her so much until daniel. being so overwhelmed by how genuine and sincere he is and it scares her so damn much

and him getting the boys to look after her? and it confuses her because she’s essentially ghosted him and he’s still being so nice?

and then even when she confronts him, she doesn’t know why she’s crying but she is and he’s still so concerned and comforting? IT MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL😭😭😭

and then almost having a repeat with max? teaching him that he deserves to be loved? that it’s okay to love more than one person as well? to know what it’s like to get past the shit his father taught him and what he really deserves?😭

I AM IN MY FEELS NOW

[fandomwe1rd0]

Allow me to analyze the toxic, codependent mess that is Rick and Morty's relationship.

Starting off with the abuser, Rick Sanchez!

As much as I love this traumatized, lonely, toxic, abusive old man, he is a horrible person. While he certainly does care about Morty more than anything, the way he treats Morty is anything but healthy, he'll constantly hurl insults at the poor kid, calls the kid replaceable, and makes the kid feel worthless. He acts like a child when it comes to Morty, since he is shown to be extremely jealous, controlling, and possessive of Morty. One of the best examples of this is in "Vindicators 3: Return of Worldender" where Rick straight up put the Vindicators (Aka Morty's heros) into a saw-like death game just out of drunken jealously. While the Vindicators were pieces of shit, this was the most immature, childish way he could've proved it. He also had Morty give up on his dreams when he was afraid of Morty leaving him in "One Crew Coocoo over Morty", he has also stopped Morty's attempts to make new friends his age, this is more subtle, but it's scattered around multiple episodes, the Pilot and Rest and Ricklaxation, where Morty has attempted to talk to Jessica, but Rick interrupts it and pulls Morty away, which Morty having his only friend be his 70 year old grandpa definitely isn't helping things for the already traumatized kid. Rick wants to be Morty's hero, he wants to be Morty's best friend, but he treats Morty so horribly that Morty can't tell. Morty should be aloud to have one friend his age. It's even been confirmed in "The Jerrick Trap" that most of his contact are crime lords, which again can't be healthy! But moving back onto Rick, the reason why I personally believe he is so horrible to Morty is due to his trauma, his wife and child died in front of him, and he blames himself for their deaths, thinking it's his fault, so he's definitely scared to care about others again. And while I certainly feel sympathy for him, that's no excuse to treat your grandson like crap. I do think he, on some level needs Morty, which is where the codependency comes in, as we can see in "Rest and Ricklaxation" Rick turned into a wreck when Morty wasn't around for three weeks. According to Jessica, he's been drunk dialing her and crying about Morty being gone, which, while sweet, shows that he's unable to function without Morty around, showing my argument that Morty is the only stabilizing thing in Rick's life, which is certainly unhealthy, Morty is his 14-year-old grandson, not a therapist. He seems to completely rely on Morty for most things, he relies on Morty to get him food (Rickfending your Mort), he relies on Morty for validation and emotional support (Mutiple episodes, an example is Vat of Acid, where he got so upset that Morty didn't validate his ego that he traumatized the kid). He's definitely changing as we can see in season 6 and 7, but the damage he's done to Morty's psyche has already been done, and the only person who can forgive him for that is Morty, speaking of which...

Let's switch gears to our favorite traumatized child, Morty!

Now I absolutely love Morty, he's my son, and poor traumatized child who deserves all the love in the world, and a good grandpa. Now Morty started the series off pretty naive, as we can see in "Pilot" where he was against shooting people, and when he did, was shown to be shocked and horrified by what he's done, meanwhile in "Mort: Raganrick" he guns down multiple people, and kills a guy with a candlestick with no reaction. And Morty, on a level, needs Rick as well, which is where the codependency kicks in for Morty, when you think about it, Rick is really the only friend Morty has, a toxic friend, but the only one he has, due to Rick's adventures, Morty is unable to make any other friends his age, which can't be helping things, while he relies on Rick less, he was shown to be heartbroken when he left (The two crows episode, I forgot the name), and attempted to get him back twice, even aging himself up to attempt to emotionally blackmail Rick into coming back "Rickmurai Jack" he even has been shown in "Fear No Mort" that he believes that Rick doesn't care about him at all, which makes sense considering how horrible Rick treats Morty on a daily basis.

Whew! That was a long post! I hope you enjoyed reading it and have a lovely rest of your day/night

[vally-vall-vall]

Man I love Green Day so fucking much

Personal little yap but I honestly cannot stress enough how much this band means to me. How much their music has affected me and continues to affect me over a decade later. How much they affected my thinking and were a literal gateway for me to formulate my thoughts about things like queerphobia and capitalism. How deeply they radicalised me and how I couldn't be more glad that they did.

"Babe, what radicalised you?" Green Day. Green Day radicalised me, bitch, cry about it. Little twelve year old me barely had the words to describe why I felt different among my peers. I wasn't openly rejected but wasn't accepted either, whether this was by my social circles, teachers or family. I was queer, (although I didn't even realise it back then) I had undiagnosed adhd, I had undiagnosed autism, I had interests that didn't align with that was taken as a norm. I felt I was treated differently as a girl because of my country's deeply rooted misogynistic approach to women, I saw the racism and discrimination all around me in subtle or grand ways, I saw the political corruption and the unfairness of the adult world and while my 12 year old brain didn't have the cognitive ability to properly comprehend all of this yet, nor to mention describe it, their music did it for me.

American Idiot was six years old by the time I was introduced to them by a friend of mine (and years later I realised I actually had a fat fucking crush on her) and fuck me listening to it was an experience I know I will never ever get again. The only way I can describe it is the way former addicts describe their first hit of heroin. Just this *bliss* that no matter how hard you chase, you can only ever experience once.

That album was everything to me. American Idiot, Homecoming, Holiday, Jesus of Suburbia especially. Every single lyric of that 9 minute song is engraved deep into my grey matter and will stay there forever because I am yet to find a song I relate to this hard after fifteen years since hearing it.

And there's nothing wrong with me

This is how I'm supposed to be

In a land of make believe

That don't believe in me

Fuck. That's perfect. I could fucking cry from catharsis right now the way I have cried many times before over these four lines. It perfectly narrowed down the feelings I had about being subtly rejected by everyone around me while it was also hammered into me to accept and believe in those who didn't believe in me.

Home is where your heart is

But what a shame, cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the same

It's beating out of time

Do you?? Want to kill me?? Do you want me to lay down and die right now?? From the near palpable relief that my dissociation and disconnection from fucking everything around me is felt by other people and that I am not alone?? That the way I feel rejected by people I should call my home, judged for my differences, shunned for my quirks, is not something that makes me unlovable? That other people feel this?? That I?? Am not alone here??

And it goes ooon and ooooon. "Everyone's so full of shit, born and raised by hypocrites" The rage, the pain, the eventual indifference and the need to run away from a world that judges you, shuns you, calls you lesser, but also expects you to give yourself to it as some kind of weird fucking social sacrifice to keep the system going despite it's blatant flaws that caused you to become and outsider in the first place.

The years of my life as a troubled teenager and young adult that followed had me go through the level of emotions of this song like it was some kind of process of it's own. The rage and anger, the frustration, the eventual indifference, the stubborn refusal to change and conform to the system, the way the pressure eventually breaks you down, the need to just but being unable to. Fucking run away from it all. Again, I have never heard a song as relatable as Jesus of Suburbia and I doubt I ever fucking will, and I'm not even fucking American.

I love Green Day so fucking much.

I knew from the very first day I was introduced to them that they were a political band (and I really?? Wonder why you'd think they aren't?? Are you stupid???) although I had no idea American Idiot specifically was a response to the Bush administration until 2021 when someone took their precious time to explain it to me in detail. And fuck me, I thought I couldn't love them more at the time, and somehow I did after I found this out. I cannot stress enough that the reason why I started paying more attention to US politics (and by extention, the world politics) was fucking Green Day.

They drove me to hyperanalise the political sphere of my country to realise it's corrupt as fuck and full of bigots, cowards and hypocrites. They drove me to think all people are equal, men or women, white or black, straight or queer. They drove me to the realisation that capitalism is a fucking lie created to exploit everything for profit. They caused me to call for equality, for peace, for the defunding of police and the military, for fighting for the queer, the sick and the disabled. They taught me to stubbornly dig my heels into the ground and demand a better world for myself and everyone I share it with. They are what drove me to vote. They are reason why I happily stand against misogyny, sexism, racism, queerphobia, why I am so opposed to capitalism and oligarchs, why I'm so passionate about the environment, decent education, free healthcare, I could go fucking on and on but you get the point.

They were the voice that I didn't know that I had or that I needed to have. To feel like a person, like I'm seen, that I do matter and that my desires and views are valid. Call me parasocial the way I talk about a fucking band, but without them and their influence, I wouldn't be myself and I am so eternally grateful for this.

I don't know what kind of person I'd be if I was never introduced to them the way I was, but definitely not the way I am now. Not to say I wouldn't be a good person if this band didn't radicalise me, but I definitely wouldn't be as passionate about everything I spoke of as I am now. Green Day changed me at my core, has and continues to influence me to this very day, makes me feel seen and understood, be it through their old songs (Jesus of Suburbia, She, Basket Case, 21 Guns) or their newer songs (Bang Bang, Still Breathing, One Eyed Bastard) or just the way all of the members fuck so damn hard. And never in my 26 years on this forsaken Earth have I ever encountered any piece of music or media that would make me feel quite so seen and *normal* about myself the way Green Day has.

Not to mention the band members are so fucking cool too. "We're bisexual and we hate America" might as well be their motto. They've all been at the front rows of advocating for the rejects of society before it was "cool" before it was normalised to say you support the queers and the immigrants, the disabled, the radical. When they would open up donations and support charities aimed at aids/hiv research, openly opposing conservative ideas about sexuality, gender roles, the control it wants to have over everyone through the spread of fear and misinformation. All of them oppose this to this day, staying by their creed for literally decades, altering their lyrics to fit present-day issues, speaking up again the Elongated Muskrat and Trumpy, supporting Palestine, opposing the war in Ukraine, opposing the overturning of Roe v Wade.

If you're looking for a band to fuck with, here you are. Never budging, never relenting, never shying away from saying and doing the right thing no matter the consequences or backlash it may bring them

I just fucking love Green Day, man. I could continue to yap about this band and the deep love and respect I have for everything they're involved in, be it queer rights or their deeply relatable, cathartic music. Fuck. I just love Green Day